Pinkleigh's Dear Diary

May 27, 2022
Dear Diary, I didn’t sleep much last night. I cried and cried. It woke up my uncle so he took the time and just held me as I cried. I didn’t care. I must have fallen asleep because when I woke up again, he was gone and my light was off. I feel
May 27
May 26, 2022
Dear Diary, Today was rough. I had two therapy sessions and I’m worn out from it.  I need to try and do better with my life. How? Where do I begin? I don’t know how. I really don’t.  My uncle Shane has tomorrow off so I don’t have to see my ca
May 27
May 25, 2022
Dear Diary, I have a nice buzz feeling going on. I feel floaty! I’m relaxed! I’m going to sleep good tonight. Better than crying myself to sleep
May 26
March 28, 2022
Dear Diary, It has been a while since I have written anything in here. I’m amazed I remembered the password. I’m just getting off work and I’m so tired.  Work was decent last night, it stayed steady. Which I’m glad for because I don’t think I
Mar 28
November 16, 2021
Dear Diary, I think I’m done with this diary. I just don’t feel up to it any more. It isn’t benefiting me or helping.  I think my problem is me. I’m broken, damaged
Nov 17
November 15, 2021
Dear Diary, I know one session of therapy doesn’t miraculously change anything but I don’t feel even a little bit better.  I also was sent an obituary of one of my old friends from back home. She died unexpectedly, they are doing an autopsy
Nov 16
November 14, 2021
Dear Diary, Nick left earlier than what he was originally planning for. He didn’t want to get stuck up here when snow came. That is probably all the news I have for the day. I laid in bed most of the day. I’m at a point where I’m just so tir
Nov 15
November 13, 2021
Dear Diary, I feel so alone lately.  Kemper found me a therapist that will do sessions on the computer, virtually. We live in the middle of nowhere so I understand why we are doing this instead of in person. It starts Monday and we will see
Nov 14
November 13, 2021
Dear Diary, I have no idea when Kemper went to bed last night. He was downstairs with Nick when I fell asleep. When I woke up, he had his arms around me and he was in a deep sleep. He also smelled like he had a lot to drink. He doesn’t drink
Nov 13
November 12, 2021
Dear Diary, Kemper and I talked this afternoon and he wants me to see a therapist. He somehow knows how unwell I have been. He said he is really concerned and wants me happy.  I didn’t have the heart to tell him that I don’t even know what w
Nov 13
November 11, 2021
Dear Diary, Kemper loved the cake. He ate two huge pieces of it. I made a 9x13 pan size and half of it is gone. 😳  We made love tonight which doesn’t happen hardly at all anymore. Mainly, well actually, all because of me. He deserves someon
Nov 12
November 11, 2021
Dear Diary, Today is veteran’s day and I’m making a cake for Kemper since he used to be a marine. He served eight years total. I’m trying really hard today to have it be just about Kemper. I am wanting to just sleep and forget the world but
Nov 11
November 09, 2021
Dear Diary, Kemper’s uncle tested positive for COVID today. I hope his isn’t real bad.  I weighed myself today for the first time in a long time and I have lost ten pounds. I’m probably getting a little on the thin side if that is actually
Nov 10
November 08, 2021
Dear Diary, To cut the technology ties even more I am going to delete my reddit account as well. I never use it and it emails me stuff all the damn time. I sometimes wonder what my life would have been like if I hadn't made a reddit post a few y
Nov 08
November 07, 2021
Dear Diary, I’m reading Bird Box on my Kindle. I’m kind of bored with the story. I hope the second one called Malorie is better. I have no life.  Kemper has been home more. Everything is slowing down for him. It has been nice. Although i
Nov 07