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July 12, 2022
Dear Diary, My ankle is swelling a lot lately. I had surgery on it and it went fine but maybe I am just not used to all the walking around, which doesn't seem to be a lot, because it is swollen. It goes away as I elevate it and ice it but this h
Jul 13
July 10, 2022
Dear Diary, Another week starts tomorrow š It is a quarter after five and Iām ready for bed. I didnāt do any school work tonight, I donāt feel up to it. I donāt feel up to staying awake and watching a movie with my dad either. He asked but
Jul 11
July 09, 2022
Dear Diary, I feel like I will lose this battle. Iām scared.Ā I looked at myself in the mirror, something I do every day but I donāt even recognize myself anymore. The person that was looking at me is in so much pain. It scared me to see tha
Jul 09
June 26, 2022
Dear Diary, I took my meds and now I am dozing on the couch. I should do some homework but I don't feel up to it. I think after my laundry dries, I am going to go to sleep.Ā It is bad to think of dying but it is all I think about anymore. I
Jun 26
June 25, 2022
Dear Diary, I have done everything this past week that I was supposed to do.Ā I went to work, went to therapy, took my meds, ate, slept, went to school. I am on auto pilot again.Ā I feel therapy is making me worse. Iām feeling things all
Jun 26
June 18, 2022
Dear Diary, Iām home now. I feel good about being here.Ā I slept most of the day because of the pills Iām on. It is supposed to help me be more relaxed and not in such a heightened state of emotion, as my psychiatrist put it. All they do is
Jun 19
May 30, 2022
Dear Diary, I had to take more meds this morning. I took a little nap as they make me so tired. I am still groggy from it but I think I can pull through it. Today, my uncle Shane and I are going to decorate graves. His dad and my grandpa on
May 30
May 29, 2022
Dear Diary, Therapy is exhausting and I hate it! I donāt have a choice though, it is court ordered It is alright living with Shane but at times I donāt like it. Kemper wonāt speak with me while Iām here, Iām forced to do therapy, Shane makes
May 30
May 27, 2022
Dear Diary, I didnāt sleep much last night. I cried and cried. It woke up my uncle so he took the time and just held me as I cried. I didnāt care. I must have fallen asleep because when I woke up again, he was gone and my light was off. I feel
May 27
May 26, 2022
Dear Diary, Today was rough. I had two therapy sessions and Iām worn out from it.Ā I need to try and do better with my life. How? Where do I begin? I donāt know how. I really donāt.Ā My uncle Shane has tomorrow off so I donāt have to see my ca
May 27
May 25, 2022
Dear Diary, I have a nice buzz feeling going on. I feel floaty! Iām relaxed! Iām going to sleep good tonight. Better than crying myself to sleep
May 26
March 28, 2022
Dear Diary, It has been a while since I have written anything in here. Iām amazed I remembered the password. Iām just getting off work and Iām so tired.Ā Work was decent last night, it stayed steady. Which Iām glad for because I donāt think I
Mar 28
November 16, 2021
Dear Diary, I think Iām done with this diary. I just donāt feel up to it any more. It isnāt benefiting me or helping.Ā I think my problem is me. Iām broken, damaged
Nov 17
November 15, 2021
Dear Diary, I know one session of therapy doesnāt miraculously change anything but I donāt feel even a little bit better.Ā I also was sent an obituary of one of my old friends from back home. She died unexpectedly, they are doing an autopsy
Nov 16
November 14, 2021
Dear Diary, Nick left earlier than what he was originally planning for. He didnāt want to get stuck up here when snow came. That is probably all the news I have for the day. I laid in bed most of the day. Iām at a point where Iām just so tir
Nov 15