Mrs. Smith 's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, I can't take this bullshit anymore and the types of shit I'm dealing with would make anyone kill themselves, foreal. I've never felt so fucking low in my fucking life as much as the fuck I do right now. The constant bullshit that comes

Dear Diary,             I've decided to go ahead and leave him because, I'm not about to be with no man who truly don't wanna be with me. I know he doesn't want to be with me anymore and he makes excuses for shit and I'm tired of everything that

Dear Diary,         I am done as of today and I'm praying to God that he allows me to move on with my life without anymore men in it. Right now I'm comfortable with being single and being by myself for the rest of my life. I'll be 39 in October and t

Dear Diary, Okay, so you guys know a little bit about my relationship and how I'm feeling about the problems that we have. Well, I decided to leave the other day while he was in the bed asleep, I didn't want to be in the house at all so I did what he

Dear Diary,      So while I'm sitting in this hot ass fucking house he's out doing whatever the fuck he wants to do, but doing in some fucking air. This fat bitch who's his fucking friend, came up in here uninvited and unannounced, and tried to

Dear Diary, It's amazing what you find out about shit later on down the road. This muthafucka left the house one night while I was sick, but he told me that he was going downstairs to watch the door. I was extremely sick that night and he lied and le

Dear Diary,      I don't know what is the problem with my relationship, but I'm tired of feeling like I don't matter to my boyfriend. We argued all the damn time and all he seems to know how to do, is lie to me about any and everything you could

Dear Diary,     Why must the lies continue? Why would he call me to see what I'm doing and then tells me that, he's coming home after he picks up something from our friends house. Just for him to turn around and get dropped off somewhere else bu

Dear Diary, I don't know why does everyone always putting someone else's business out there. If you got a problem with me or anyone else please make sure you come to me correct. Don't try to put me on blast in front of people because, it's not anyone

Dear Diary, I was at the gas station the other day and this guy was standing behind me staring at me hard a fuck, he said something that I've never heard before but it was really cute. He asked me was I a flight attendant, I looked at him and sa

Dear Diary, My ankle is swelling a lot lately. I had surgery on it and it went fine but maybe I am just not used to all the walking around, which doesn't seem to be a lot, because it is swollen. It goes away as I elevate it and ice it but this h

Dear Diary, Another week starts tomorrow 😖 It is a quarter after five and I’m ready for bed. I didn’t do any school work tonight, I don’t feel up to it. I don’t feel up to staying awake and watching a movie with my dad either. He asked but

Dear Diary, I feel like I will lose this battle. I’m scared.  I looked at myself in the mirror, something I do every day but I don’t even recognize myself anymore. The person that was looking at me is in so much pain. It scared me to see tha

Dear Diary, I took my meds and now I am dozing on the couch. I should do some homework but I don't feel up to it. I think after my laundry dries, I am going to go to sleep.  It is bad to think of dying but it is all I think about anymore. I

Dear Diary, I have done everything this past week that I was supposed to do.  I went to work, went to therapy, took my meds, ate, slept, went to school. I am on auto pilot again.  I feel therapy is making me worse. I’m feeling things all

Dear Diary, I’m home now. I feel good about being here.  I slept most of the day because of the pills I’m on. It is supposed to help me be more relaxed and not in such a heightened state of emotion, as my psychiatrist put it. All they do is

Dear Diary, I had to take more meds this morning. I took a little nap as they make me so tired. I am still groggy from it but I think I can pull through it. Today, my uncle Shane and I are going to decorate graves. His dad and my grandpa on

Dear Diary, Therapy is exhausting and I hate it! I don’t have a choice though, it is court ordered It is alright living with Shane but at times I don’t like it. Kemper won’t speak with me while I’m here, I’m forced to do therapy, Shane makes

Dear Diary, I didn’t sleep much last night. I cried and cried. It woke up my uncle so he took the time and just held me as I cried. I didn’t care. I must have fallen asleep because when I woke up again, he was gone and my light was off. I feel

Dear Diary, Today was rough. I had two therapy sessions and I’m worn out from it.  I need to try and do better with my life. How? Where do I begin? I don’t know how. I really don’t.  My uncle Shane has tomorrow off so I don’t have to see my ca

Dear Diary, I have a nice buzz feeling going on. I feel floaty! I’m relaxed! I’m going to sleep good tonight. Better than crying myself to sleep

Dear Diary, It has been a while since I have written anything in here. I’m amazed I remembered the password. I’m just getting off work and I’m so tired.  Work was decent last night, it stayed steady. Which I’m glad for because I don’t think I

Dear Diary, I think I’m done with this diary. I just don’t feel up to it any more. It isn’t benefiting me or helping.  I think my problem is me. I’m broken, damaged

Dear Diary, I know one session of therapy doesn’t miraculously change anything but I don’t feel even a little bit better.  I also was sent an obituary of one of my old friends from back home. She died unexpectedly, they are doing an autopsy

Dear Diary, Nick left earlier than what he was originally planning for. He didn’t want to get stuck up here when snow came. That is probably all the news I have for the day. I laid in bed most of the day. I’m at a point where I’m just so tir