Pinkleigh's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, I didn’t sleep much last night. I cried and cried. It woke up my uncle so he took the time and just held me as I cried. I didn’t care. I must have fallen asleep because when I woke up again, he was gone and my light was off. I feel

Dear Diary, Today was rough. I had two therapy sessions and I’m worn out from it.  I need to try and do better with my life. How? Where do I begin? I don’t know how. I really don’t.  My uncle Shane has tomorrow off so I don’t have to see my ca

Dear Diary, I have a nice buzz feeling going on. I feel floaty! I’m relaxed! I’m going to sleep good tonight. Better than crying myself to sleep

Dear Diary, It has been a while since I have written anything in here. I’m amazed I remembered the password. I’m just getting off work and I’m so tired.  Work was decent last night, it stayed steady. Which I’m glad for because I don’t think I

Dear Diary, I think I’m done with this diary. I just don’t feel up to it any more. It isn’t benefiting me or helping.  I think my problem is me. I’m broken, damaged

Dear Diary, I know one session of therapy doesn’t miraculously change anything but I don’t feel even a little bit better.  I also was sent an obituary of one of my old friends from back home. She died unexpectedly, they are doing an autopsy

Dear Diary, Nick left earlier than what he was originally planning for. He didn’t want to get stuck up here when snow came. That is probably all the news I have for the day. I laid in bed most of the day. I’m at a point where I’m just so tir

Dear Diary, I feel so alone lately.  Kemper found me a therapist that will do sessions on the computer, virtually. We live in the middle of nowhere so I understand why we are doing this instead of in person. It starts Monday and we will see

Dear Diary, I have no idea when Kemper went to bed last night. He was downstairs with Nick when I fell asleep. When I woke up, he had his arms around me and he was in a deep sleep. He also smelled like he had a lot to drink. He doesn’t drink

Dear Diary, Kemper and I talked this afternoon and he wants me to see a therapist. He somehow knows how unwell I have been. He said he is really concerned and wants me happy.  I didn’t have the heart to tell him that I don’t even know what w

Dear Diary, Kemper loved the cake. He ate two huge pieces of it. I made a 9x13 pan size and half of it is gone. 😳  We made love tonight which doesn’t happen hardly at all anymore. Mainly, well actually, all because of me. He deserves someon

Dear Diary, Today is veteran’s day and I’m making a cake for Kemper since he used to be a marine. He served eight years total. I’m trying really hard today to have it be just about Kemper. I am wanting to just sleep and forget the world but

Dear Diary, Kemper’s uncle tested positive for COVID today. I hope his isn’t real bad.  I weighed myself today for the first time in a long time and I have lost ten pounds. I’m probably getting a little on the thin side if that is actually

Dear Diary, To cut the technology ties even more I am going to delete my reddit account as well. I never use it and it emails me stuff all the damn time. I sometimes wonder what my life would have been like if I hadn't made a reddit post a few y

Dear Diary, I’m reading Bird Box on my Kindle. I’m kind of bored with the story. I hope the second one called Malorie is better. I have no life.  Kemper has been home more. Everything is slowing down for him. It has been nice. Although i