Pinkleigh's Dear Diary

January 24, 2021
Dear Diary, I still don’t know what I plan to do. I emailed Ryan a huge sob story of how I was homeless and broke and hadn’t eaten for a few days. It took about ten minutes for him to respond to that. Fucking dick!  It was a short email but he
Jan 24
January 23, 2021
Dear Diary, I found a homeless shelter last night to stay at. I want my cash to last as long as I can. I honestly hate that Kemper gave me money before I left. Today will be a day to figure out what to do next. I am going to try and contact Rya
Jan 23
January 22, 2021
Dear Diary, I left! I need to figure my life out on my own. Being with Kemper wasn’t going to help with that. I just hope I made the right decision. I do feel better about making this decision instead of questioning whether I should go or not.
Jan 22
January 21, 2021
Dear Diary, I get the feeling that if this felt right then why would I question it so much? I just wish I knew the answer. How do people figure their lives out? Probably not in the way I do but it is what it is. Kemper is so great and caring an
Jan 21
January 20, 2021
Dear Diary, I listened to one of Kemper’s friends last night talk about the government being over thrown today and Trump remaining as our President.  When he left Kemper started laughing and said he is a little out there. Ya think!  Kemper sai
Jan 20
January 19, 2021
Dear Diary, Kemper told me this morning that sleeping in the same bed is nice. I agree! He said  last night that maybe he was used to it but he never really noticed before how often the wolves howl. I don’t know how you could miss it. It’s pret
Jan 19
January 18, 2021
Dear Diary, I talked to Kemper last night. It was so hard to do. I told him I wasn’t happy and just felt alone and like I didn’t belong here.  He asked why I felt that way.  I told him that he keeps me at such a distance and I feel completely
Jan 18
January 17, 2021
Dear Diary, We didn't see any wolves last night. Kemper said I must not be much of a Stark. I had no idea what he was talking about. I guess it is a Game of Thrones thing after he explained. The funny thing though, when we got back home, after a
Jan 17
January 16, 2021
Dear Diary, I don't think I will be here much longer. This isn't the place for me. I don't know whether I should just go out again on my own or head home. All I know is going home won't last long, it never does. I don't know how to break it to K
Jan 16
January 15, 2021
Dear Diary, I have been thinking of my existence all night. I was already born to have challenges in my life with aphasia. I don’t think my life was suppose to be easy. I have also been thinking of where I belong. I know if I go home, I wouldn’
Jan 15
January 14, 2021
Dear Diary, I slept in Kemper’s bed last night. I couldn’t sleep in my own. I woke up and he was already gone for work.  I feel so alone and depressed.  I just want to lie in bed and listen to depressing ass music. There is a song in my head,
Jan 14
January 13, 2021
Dear Diary, I am so emotional lately. I have cried most of the day over Ryan. When Kemper came home from work I did my best to hide it.  I miss Ryan so much!  Then I started watching Forrest Gump a little bit ago and it was practically ending
Jan 14
January 12, 2021
Dear Diary, I just don't think I can do this. He keeps me at such a distance and it is driving me nuts. I guess I am just not used to this. It is kind of just making me depressed. It is so cold out that there just isn't a need to go outside and
Jan 12
January 11, 2021
Dear Diary, So I finally got some answers from Kemper. I asked him straight up why he maintains his distance from me.  He said that he doesn’t want to start a physical relationship with me because I have never had a healthy relationship before.
Jan 11
January 10, 2021
Dear Diary, So Kemper is teaching me chess or tried to last night. I always use to call it fancy checkers when I played with the chess pieces. Haha!  My ankle cast is itching so bad. I can't wait for it to come off.  I finally heard from Ian a
Jan 10