Pinkleigh's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, Kemper had noticed that I was crying and upset lately. He asked and I told him how I felt about Ryan lately. He said he would never let it happen again. I appreciate the sentiment but obviously it won't, he is still in a hospital rec

Dear Diary, I don’t think I can handle normal relationships.  I have come to a lot of realizations lately and it has been hard to deal with.  I hate Ryan for what he did to me! I hate him for everything!  I can’t do anything right and I’m goi

Dear Diary, Kemper came home really early this morning and I woke up and he was still dressed and cuddled right up to me sound asleep.  I’m glad he is home. He is glad to be home.  He is unusually quiet but told me he just needs to reprogram b

Dear Diary, Still no word from Kemper. He said he would be home no later than Saturday night.  I also haven’t heard from Ian or Sarah for that matter. I need a life!  I worry so much about everyone else and not much for my self.  I did finis

Dear Diary, Still no word from Kemper. It breaks my heart!  I constantly think about him.  I have emailed mom some more asking about Ryan and she hasn’t responded.  I am going to go to bed. Tired of feeling defeated

Dear Diary, Kemper left earlier today. He said he wouldn’t be around his phone but when he could, he would text or call. 🙁 I cleaned his place up and did all the laundry and now I’m just lying here wishing he was here. He has a paperback of L

Dear Diary, Kemper has made it a point to spend time with me today. I never asked him to but he said he feels we should spend the day together since he is leaving tomorrow. I’m grateful! We had an early picnic type lunch at one of the outdoor s

Dear Diary, I don’t want Kemper to leave. I don’t have a choice though. I love our time together.  We fell asleep on the couch this afternoon and I enjoyed it immensely. He held me so close and tight as he slept.  I never realized how banged

Dear Diary, My ear infection is getting a lot better. I can’t even remember the last time I had one, I was probably a toddler. I did contact my mom and told her I was okay. I asked about Ryan and how he was doing. I haven’t received a response

Dear Diary, Kemper and I have been going on rides lately and hiking a lot. It is nice spring weather here. I love going on the rides and him showing me neat spots to enjoy. This place is beautiful! He said he is going to have to leave for a wee

Dear Diary, It is kind of scaring me about how I feel about Kemper. It is all so different and something I have not had, normally I feel like I need to distance myself from him just to maintain myself. We don’t sleep in the same bed so it is eas

Dear Diary, I know I wrote in here earlier but I have a lot of thoughts that I need to get down. Why can’t I make a decision? I have been thinking how nice it would be to be home with my dad but when I was, it was very different then before. He

Dear Diary, I asked Kemper if I could stay and he said yes! He told me that if I needed anything that I just need to let him know.  He even gave me a phone that is on his cell plan. I was about out of my card on my pre pay phone. I have no cash

Dear Diary, I’m with Kemper now. He came and picked me up. He is upset with me, still. And that was a few days ago that he picked me up.  I can’t go home, ever, or at least until I’m 18. Or I go back to that detention center. I can’t go see Rya

Dear Diary, I think it is time to move on but I’m unsure yet of when or how. I’m burning way too many bridges to keep calling to pick me up.