July 25, 2021

Dear Diary,

         I am done as of today and I'm praying to God that he allows me to move on with my life without anymore men in it. Right now I'm comfortable with being single and being by myself for the rest of my life. I'll be 39 in October and the only thing I want, is a one bedroom apartment away from Kansas City, Missouri. I don't want any friends that lives in Kansas City, Missouri, I will never fuck with anymore men in Kansas City, Missouri. I don't want any man anymore period and he's done fucked all that shit up for every man out here. Remember I was telling you guys about the stupid fat bitch that tried to steal fucking purse, which is the same dirty ass fucking whore that drugged his dumb ass. I finally made up mind about what I was gonna do about my relationship. And it all comes from this muthafucka sitting across from this bitch while I'm sitting in the recliner. My cousin Lil Q is sitting on the loveseat and this fat bitch is sitting next to him, I am so fucking pissed because they know what the fuck happened. They both really say there and tried to defend this bitch talking about, but she's the homie though. So it's okay for her to walk up in this muthafuckin house and just take my shit and walk out with it like it was hers.  Let that had been me it would have been a fight, well more so of me beating the fuck out her dumbass. He really fucked me up talking about he don't believe she's the one that did drugged him. I'm done with this fucking relationship for good now because, if he's that quick to take up for another bitch over me and my word, then fuck him and I've decided to get an abortion also. I'll be damned if I'm stuck raising another child that I didn't fucking ask for in the first place. I'm not about to spend my days and nights worrying about if my child is out stealing something. That's all the fuck he does is wake up and go to sleep stealing shit, and it's not no little cheap shit neither.  I'm talking about shit that costs $500 to well over $50,000 in value, but yet we don't have our own shit and have been together for almost nine months now. He's asked me to marry him and everything but fuck that I'm good, I'm not fucking marrying someone like him I can't fucking do it anymore. I've tried to make the relationship work and I've given him chance after chance and nothing hasn't even begun to change. He's not going to change he's not even putting forth the effort to change and it's the same shit every fucking day all day long. I deserve better but I've been done so wrong by so many people within the past four years, that I don't want anyone else in my life and I mean just that. My motto is now and always have been the same since I could remember, FUCK EVERY!!! That's how the fuck I felt then and that's how the fuck I feel right now today. Fuck everybody and you wanna know why? Because I've been getting fucked over since I was a fresh baby in my fourth month, I'm gonna get into details about that a little bit later. I'm gonna tell you the glorious tales of the one and only, Miss Ariel Shateka Charles aka Bunnie or my favorite, Miss Petty Betty, leader and founder of Petty Squad Industries (The Nation's Dynasty of QueenAri Royelle.