Reader91 's Dear Diary

Dear Maya, I have come to several realisations.  1. I am truly happy with the work I never wanted. I work in a factory from 5 till 2 in de morning. Yet I find myself at peace with my career because I have tons of afternoon time for myself now

Dear Maya, It has been a while since I wrote on this app. Yesterday I started a happiness jar. It's a jar where you put a small piece of paper in every day with one thing that makes you happy. I have made a category system. Orange is people, gree

Dear Maya, I should be sleeping but I have come to a realization. I red a question a few days ago. It was a would you rather. Would you rather go back to being 10 years old with all the knowledge you have now or be 40 with a million on your banka

Dear Maya, Do you people out there ever get a flashback from a bad time in your childhood that you were ashamed of before and now you just want to hug your younger self? I remember this one time when I was 8 or 9. I had gotten this geology set for

Dear Maya, Today I woke up with a panicked feeling. I held that feeling the whole day and it honsetly ruined everything. I still finished a drawing I had been working on longer tham expected. And I wrote a couple of character plots for my book. M

Dear Maya, Today was great, but before I tell you about my day, let me tell you about a struggle I have.  Anytime I have a cringy moment or a bad moment I link that moment to the object or song that caused it or was present during it. I sung

Dear Maya, I have started my open diary today. I actually wanted this before I knew it existed. I never was great at keeping diary's primarily because I saw no point in explaining my day if nobody was going to read it anyway. I just want to tell

(Feelings of unworthiness)  Dear Diary, Feelings of unworthiness make me feel like I am empty, knowing very well I am an ocean filled with beauty.This emptiness hidden beneath the beauty makes me feel this unworthy that I fail to recognise I am hi

Dear Diary, One doesn't know what one wants. One feels tired of fighting all the illusions one has created in one's mind. One wonders why one keeps thinking about all those people who gave nothing to oneself except traumatic memories. One wonders w

Dear Diary, One is feeling like one desires to express oneself. One feels like one desires to express one's sexuality. One feels like one needs an illusion to feel one is connected to someone else. One wonders if one is alie. One hates the One w

Dear Diary, One is wanting validation from oneself, while making oneself feel like one is wanting validation from the people existing in the physical world. One is experiencing anxiety because one is running after stuff which will come into existen

Dear Diary, I don't know what to write. I am trying to make sense of my feelings and my thoughts. One is wanting validation from the illusions one created in one's own mind. Illusion of a teacher, illusion of a father, illusion of a mother, illu

(Perfectionism) Dear Diary, One asks oneself what it's like being a perfectionist. One looks at oneself and finds oneself in misery. One is struggling, one is suffering. One wonders if being an imperfectionist is one's reality.

(What are they thinking?) Dear Diary, Life is not about what they might be thinking. Life is not about what they will think. Life is all about the realization of the illusions one's mind creates. One is not afraid of what others might be thinki

(Feelings of loneliness) Dear Diary, One doesn't know what to write about. About feelings of loneliness or feelings of regret about what one did yesterday. One is sinking in feelings of despair, feeling powerless and vulnerable. Feeling insecure

(Loneliness) Dear Diary, These constant feelings of being left alone, these constant feelings of feeling left alone, these constant feelings of not being supported by the ones one consider important, the ones one care about. These constant feel

(Addictions) Dear Diary, Addictions; a pathway to destruction of one's soul. Feelings of lust which are overpowering oneself, one's mind and one's thoughts. Given in to that feeling multiple times, given in to this illusion of someone making on

(Reality of dreams) Dear Diary, Dreams happening in my subconscious, dreams; a part of my life, nightmares; a part of the deepest scars of my mind. One wonders what they want to show. One wonders what they want to teach.Feelings of fear and par

(Illusioned mind) Dear Diary, For you're mine; said the mind to oneself feeling like it was talking to the illusion of the being it was creating feelings of love for. For you gotta be mine; said the ego to the the illusion of it's piece of desi

(Ups and downs) Dear Diary, For life is all about ups and downs. Feelings of despair and agony leading to an ocean of tragedy and misery. Hope is nowhere to be found, hidden beneath layers of self-pity and self-denial. Does hope tend to cease?

(Feeling like shit) Dear Diary, I feel like shit. I am not able to study since last 2 months. I am feeling terrible about the fact I couldn't prepare for my exams. I feel like shit. I want to cry. I want to cry, I just want to cry, I just want

(Feeling like shit) Dear Diary, I feel like shit. The reason I am saying this is because of the fact I feel like I am wasting my time. I am tired of overthinking, I am tired of overeating, I am tired of dissappointing myself. I am tired of feel