Lilly's Dear Diary

Index
#15 December 18, 2023
Dear Diary, One is feeling like one desires to express oneself. One feels like one desires to express one's sexuality. One feels like one needs an illusion to feel one is connected to someone else. One wonders if one is alie. One hates the One w
Dec 18
#14 December 18, 2023
Dear Diary, One is wanting validation from oneself, while making oneself feel like one is wanting validation from the people existing in the physical world. One is experiencing anxiety because one is running after stuff which will come into existen
Dec 18
#13 December 18, 2023
Dear Diary, I don't know what to write. I am trying to make sense of my feelings and my thoughts. One is wanting validation from the illusions one created in one's own mind. Illusion of a teacher, illusion of a father, illusion of a mother, illu
Dec 18
#12 December 08, 2023
Dear Diary, (Perfectionism) One asks oneself what it's like being a perfectionist. One looks at oneself and finds oneself in misery. One is struggling, one is suffering. One wonders if being an imperfectionist is one's reality.
Dec 08
#11 December 08, 2023
Dear Diary, (What are they thinking?) Life is not about what they might be thinking. Life is not about what they will think. Life is all about the realization of the illusions one's mind creates. One is not afraid of what others might be thinki
Dec 08
#10 December 03, 2023
Dear Diary, I just want peace.
Dec 03
#9 December 01, 2023
Dear Diary, Feeling like a mess, ya ALLAH I feel like a mess.
Dec 01
#8 November 19, 2023
Dear Diary, One doesn't know what to write about. About feelings of loneliness or feelings of regret about what one did yesterday. One is sinking in feelings of despair, feeling powerless and vulnerable. Feeling insecure as if one is inferior or
Nov 19
#7 November 19, 2023
(Loneliness) Dear Diary, These constant feelings of being left alone, these constant feelings of feeling left alone, these constant feelings of not being supported by the ones one consider important, the ones one care about. These constant feel
Nov 19
#6 November 19, 2023
(Addictions) Dear Diary, Addictions; a pathway to destruction of one's soul. Feelings of lust which are overpowering oneself, one's mind and one's thoughts. Given in to that feeling multiple times, given in to this illusion of someone making on
Nov 19
#5 November 19, 2023
(Reality of dreams) Dear Diary, Dreams happening in my subconscious, dreams; a part of my life, nightmares; a part of the deepest scars of my mind. One wonders what they want to show. One wonders what they want to teach.Feelings of fear and par
Nov 19
#4 November 18, 2023
(Illusioned mind) Dear Diary, For you're mine; said the mind to oneself feeling like it was talking to the illusion of the being it was creating feelings of love for. For you gotta be mine; said the ego to the the illusion of it's piece of desi
Nov 18
#3 November 18, 2023
(Ups and downs) Dear Diary, For life is all about ups and downs. Feelings of despair and agony leading to an ocean of tragedy and misery. Hope is nowhere to be found, hidden beneath layers of self-pity and self-denial. Does hope tend to cease?
Nov 18
#2 November 08, 2023
(Feeling like shit) Dear Diary, I feel like shit. I am not able to study since last 2 months. I am feeling terrible about the fact I couldn't prepare for my exams. I feel like shit. I want to cry. I want to cry, I just want to cry, I just want
Nov 08
#1 November 06, 2023
(Feeling like shit) Dear Diary, I feel like shit. The reason I am saying this is because of the fact I feel like I am wasting my time. I am tired of overthinking, I am tired of overeating, I am tired of dissappointing myself. I am tired of feel
Nov 06