(Feeling like shit)
Dear Diary,
I feel like shit. The reason I am saying this is because of the fact I feel like I am wasting my time. I am tired of overthinking, I am tired of overeating, I am tired of dissappointing myself. I am tired of feeling like shit. I am tired of overthinking about the embarassement I have felt during those moments, I am tired of feeling like shit. I am just tired of it. I feel like Ced doesn't like me, I feel like Ced thinks I was praising myself by putting others down. I feel like Ced might be thinking I was trying to justify my feelings by putting others down. I am feeling like Ced hates me for whatever reason. I am feeling like Ced hates me for whatever reason. I feel dumbfounded, I hate myself for being so sensitive. I hate myself for being this emotional. I hate myself for overthinking. I hate myself for feeling like shit. I hate myself for always getting into fights.I hate myself for loving Ced. I hate myself for seeking love in Ced. I hate myself for not providing me love myself I want from Ced. I am tired of watchin porn and thinking Ced licking my pussy to make me feel better and less lonely. I am tired of wasting time by mindlessly using internet. I am tired of everything. I am tired of everything happening around me. I am tired of everything happening around me. I am tired of everything happening around me. I am tired of feeling like shit, being like shit. I am tired of wanting love from Ced, Ced say you love me, Ced say you love me, Ced say you love me, Ced say you want to make me happy, Ced say you want to make me happy, Ced talk to me, Ced reply to my message, Ced reply to my message, Ced reply to my message, Ced reply to my message. I hate myself, I don't want to hate myself, I want Ced to love me, I want Ced to love me, I want Ced to love me, I want Ced to love me, I want Ced to love me, I want Ced to confess to me, I want Ced, I want to be with Ced, I want to be surrounded by Ced, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate mysel, I hate myself, I hate myself, I don't wnt to hate myself, I want to love myself, I want to love myself, love me solace, love me pls, love me, don't hate me, I am unable to love myself, I am unable to love myself, I am unable to love myself but pls love me solace, make me feel like i am loved, make me feel like i am worthy of love, make me feel like i am worthy of your love, make me feel like i am worthy of your love, make me feel like i am worthy of your love, make me feel like i am worthy of your love, make me feel like i am worthy of your love, make me feel like i am worthy of yourself, i don't hate anyone, i don't want to hate anyone, i love everyone, i still wish them the best, i still wish them teh best, i still wish them the best, i still wish them the best, i still wish them the best, i still wish them the best, i love you all, i don't hate you guys, i love you all, a appreciate you all, i appreciate you all, i appreciate you all, i appreciate you all, i appreciate you all, i appreciate you all, i appreciate you all, i love ced because i seek father's love in love and i accept i lack father's love, it's painful, it's extremely painful, and i am allowed to feel pain, i am allowed to feel pain, i am allowed to feel pain, i am allowed to feel pain, i do not want to hate myself, i don't want to hate myself, i don't want to hate myself, i love myself, i love myself, i love myself, i love myself, i love myself, i love myself, i love myself, i love myself, i can do it.