Piratessa's Dear Diary

July 30, 2021 ipersesitivity to madication
Dear Diary, It seems the my problem is confirmed as ipersensitivity to medication... I ask for what to do now, they said that I have too do a lot of exams but the results are not guaranteed because no one really understand what allergies are and ho
Jul 30
July 29, 2021 D&D Anxiety
Dear Diary, I should play at D&D this evening... Actually I'm not enthusiastic after what I've heard yesterday, even if I think that no-one will start the topic face to face with me and I can just continue to wear my poker face. Anyway remains
Jul 29
July 29, 2021 to pay the bills
Dear Diary, I have to pay my parent's bills, I have to use my father's money, I already pay part of our bills (like phone and internets connection) and their medical expenses (they forget to refund me) and I can not sustain also this payments.
Jul 29
July 28, 2021 I'm losing everything.
Dear Diary, I'm continuing to losing everything... I lost my family, I lost all the thing I like (theatres, cinemas, concerts, friends, festivals, the capacity of reading), even if some activities are restarting I'm not capable of enjoying anything
Jul 28
July 28, 2021 a friend had a dream about me
Dear Diary, Yesterday a friend of mine told me that he dreamed of having betrayed his wife with me...  Why am I so annoyed by this? Dreams are not controllable, and most of the time they haven't any sense or meaning and he was actually feeling gui
Jul 28
July 25, 2021 I've not enough strength
Dear Diary, Today I wake up with  petechiae without have taken any medication. This fact open a scenery in which this condition could be more serious respect to what it seemed before. I really should take blood analysis, but I'm too tired, to d
Jul 24
July 22, 2021 I can't get up
Dear Diary, I'm losing interest in everything again. I was Ierning a new instrument and then I lost interest, I was lerning Esperanto and then I lost interest. In 2018 I spent a whole year in bed because of depression, I was at university at th
Jul 22
July 21, 2021 how did I come to this? Pt. 2
Dear Diary, When I had to explaine to my friends why I have to use masks and respect social distancing I had to say to them that my parents are fragile. I did not talk about their craziness, I did not talk about the fact that some of my brothers
Jul 19
July 19, 2021 how did I come to this? Pt. 1
Dear Diary, My boyfriend left this morning. Even if this situation has advantages (two: I don't have to tolerate sex and I'm less exposed to delta variant), I feel lonely. I was diagnosed with major depression four years ago, but no one know th
Jul 19
July 18, 2021 occlusal splint
Dear Diary, For a moment I forgot where I putted my occlusal splint. I panicked because I thought  I left it at my boyfriend house. Luckily it was in the pocket of the long shirt I use like a jacket. During this period everything is going wrong
Jul 17
July 17, 2021 paranoia
Dear Diary, I'm going into paranoia. I have the sensation that my boyfriend was not as careful as he told me. I'm scared about delta variant. I'm scare to get sick. I'm scared also about him to get sick for the second time. My parents are vaccina
Jul 16
July 13, 2021 languages
Dear Diary, I was thinking about how many foreign languages I studied when I was a school girl: at the primary school I studied French and English; then at secondary school I studied Spanish; at high school I studied Latin and Ancient Greek.  The
Jul 13
July 13, 2021 delirium of insomnia
Dear Diary, It's 3.30 AM, I can't sleep. I took a slipping pill but it's not working. I don't know what to do, maybe I will read a book. Caro diario, Sono le 3 e 30 del mattino, non riesco a dormire. Ho preso un sonnifero, ma non funziona. Non
Jul 13
July 12, 2021 Esperanto
Dear Diary, My life it's becoming so empty that I'm starting to follow any free online course I can find. Most of them are just crap: nobody does anything for free.  Anyway, now I'm trying to learn Esperanto. Probably it would be smarter try to i
Jul 12
July 12, 2021
Dear Diary, Fuck football! 3.30 AM and the people are still using trumpets and clacsons! They are driving me crazy!! It's intolerable! I can't do anything! I'm tired! I want to sleep but I can't and tomorrow it's Monday! Why they act like that for
Jul 12