Piratessa's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, Do i like him or is it because he actually makes me feel seen and heard?

Dear Diary, cried on one thing and all things came, gathered and cried more. i will always cry if someone treats me bad but infront of them no? will i hide what i feel? yes. is that healthy for my mental health? no. will i do it everytime? yes. alw

Dear Diary, Months sum up.  I haven't been writing to you. i got busy. dear Diary remember the times i said i want to be busy and learn. i am. and now its exhausting but like yk i am so proud of myself. also there are new interns in office who two

Dear Diary, been busy almost whole day. the work, i am learning and slowly becoming as what i wanted to be. 16 years old me would never believe i would handle all the phone calls almost whole day for mintues. she'd think that's a lie but it is not 

Dear Diary, Help. I was thinking about is it obvious when people like? like there's signal or not? because i feel like i am not deserved to loved. idk from childhood maybe family problems and everything. like liking as in crush kinda thing yk. D

Dear Diary, My fingers and knee are healing lmao. I had accident last tuesday while i was coming back from work. that guy really hit with his bike on those rough road to my bike. but it's healing. kind of hard to do normal strech. just had dinner.

Dear Diary, Long time no see. Ahh today was a good day. I do quote as I hear Harry styles voice in this. In office, there was cool nerdy boy who came for my boss sign who work in another company but aligned with mine. Kinda cute. Then my boss wasn'

Dear Diary, Grateful

Dear Diary, So I did all my works and finished most of the work. Our semester is off right now. And I opened the snap of my benchmates where they hung out.then it hit me. I haven't talked to them. They two are like really close and I just feel l

Dear Diary, I am tired. I had to do a lot of work and I skipped not going to lie. I am going to start fresh from Sunday. I keep telling this to myself and I know I should stop procrastinating to be honest. My boss is out of the country and everyone

Dear Diary, I just want to cry with no reason. I'm tired with no reason. This evening my boyfriend wants do come for dinner at my home. Why? Why we have to dinner with my parents? I don't understand. I hate when people come to my house... It's it

Dear Diary, I downloaded this app again, I did not remember that I already used it. It's incredible how my life sucks at the same level anytime I read something I wrote in the past.  It's not the first time for me to find things I wrote. I

Dear Diary, Because of the head hache I was having since the second dose of the vaccine, I finally went to Emergency department. That was a good move, unlike my doctor, at the hospital, even if they were full of very serious patient and I was not

Dear Diary, I have a huge headache. I have headache since I was 3 years old and the only thing doctors have done for that was prescribing me a very strong painkiller, but I can't take painkillers anymore in theory because I've becomed hypersensitiv

Dear Diary, My parents went out just to walk. I consider this moments like treasures, because I can stay outside of my room without them asking me things, without their continuous screams and shouts, without their continuous criticisms. I can s

Dear Diary, A thing that I really hate in people it's the mechanism of denying reality to maintain the idea they have of the world. Some data and some situations are just facts, and no-one can have an opinion about the reality of facts, people

Dear Diary, Whatever I try to do I feel empty and nervous. Nothing makes me feel satisfying. I don't want to watch a movie, read a book, study Esperanto or play an instrument. I'm indifferent to work too and I don't like to go out because of the p

Dear Diary, It seems the my problem is confirmed as ipersensitivity to medication... I ask for what to do now, they said that I have too do a lot of exams but the results are not guaranteed because no one really understand what allergies are and ho

Dear Diary, I should play at D&D this evening... Actually I'm not enthusiastic after what I've heard yesterday, even if I think that no-one will start the topic face to face with me and I can just continue to wear my poker face. Anyway remains

Dear Diary, I have to pay my parent's bills, I have to use my father's money, I already pay part of our bills (like phone and internets connection) and their medical expenses (they forget to refund me) and I can not sustain also this payments.

Dear Diary, I'm continuing to losing everything... I lost my family, I lost all the thing I like (theatres, cinemas, concerts, friends, festivals, the capacity of reading), even if some activities are restarting I'm not capable of enjoying anything

Dear Diary, Yesterday a friend of mine told me that he dreamed of having betrayed his wife with me...  Why am I so annoyed by this? Dreams are not controllable, and most of the time they haven't any sense or meaning and he was actually feeling gui

Dear Diary, Today I wake up with  petechiae without have taken any medication. This fact open a scenery in which this condition could be more serious respect to what it seemed before. I really should take blood analysis, but I'm too tired, to d

Dear Diary, I'm losing interest in everything again. I was Ierning a new instrument and then I lost interest, I was lerning Esperanto and then I lost interest. In 2018 I spent a whole year in bed because of depression, I was at university at th

Dear Diary, When I had to explaine to my friends why I have to use masks and respect social distancing I had to say to them that my parents are fragile. I did not talk about their craziness, I did not talk about the fact that some of my brothers