Dear Diary,
Yesterday a friend of mine told me that he dreamed of having betrayed his wife with me...
Why am I so annoyed by this? Dreams are not controllable, and most of the time they haven't any sense or meaning and he was actually feeling guilty even if it wasn't his fault.
Anyway, I lost the desire of text with him. I don't know why. Probably I should maintain the friendship: even if he is in another region, I am totally alone and I need people to talk sometimes; his wife is pregnant and I would like to see the baby sooner or later, they searched for this baby for year and now I'm so happy for them and I want to know how the things are going.
Why am I so upset? Maybe because I don't like sex even with my boyfriend, I hate when people think of me that way. Is it possible of being upset even if it was an involuntary thinking?
Anyway, why me? I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm shabby and messy, I have an ugly smile and I will wear a mobile braces forever... Even if I act nice I'm an horrible person inside... This dream probably must have been a nightmare...
I'm actin irrational, but I wish he hadn't told me, now I feel embarrassed.