August 06, 2021 I'm not allowed to relax

3
Comments

Dear Diary,

My parents went out just to walk. I consider this moments like treasures, because I can stay outside of my room without them asking me things, without their continuous screams and shouts, without their continuous criticisms.


I can simply switch off the two televisions, take a cold tea and read a book. I was reading a little anthology with four short gothic stories about masked entities, very enjoyable. 


I was starting feeling a little better than how I usually feel. But they stayed away less then an hour... I heard them shouting and arguing and screaming before they opened the door.

I literary ran away in my room, locking my room's door behind me to avoid them. 


I feel bad now just hearing them outside the door, I want to cry and hurt myself for the frustration. I haven't finished not even one of the short stories.


I wonder: can they be considered mental abusers? Can illness be considered a good reason to reduce a caregiver as they reduced me? I'm scared by them, even if they can not hurt me physically... But they are so overwhelming, so verbally aggressive, so nagging. 


Nobody should be allowed to treat a person like they do, even if they are handicapped or sick.

P
Piratessa✓
Aug 6, 2021 · 36 views

Comments (3)

Sign in to leave a comment.

G
gAug 6, 2021

I am so sorry to hear that.Our greatest human nature is to adapt with the situation.Wish you best of the luck🌾

P
PiratessaAug 6, 2021

my father nave dementia, is becoming totally idiot and useless. It's like a child, but evil. He was an egocentric even before the disease, now he talk and shout without pauses, all day, touching everything, insulting everyone. It's like a retarded person, but very aggressive. If you talk to him he don't understand. My mother have a degenerative disease and she is facing the fact that marry a man so older then she was a stupid idea. So now she is anger. You cannot talk with hill people, they see only themselves and their pain, they think that they deserve everything because they are handicapped. I seem cruel, but I think that if we become toxic, useless or demented we should pay for someone to take care of us or die... We should not ruin our relative's life

G
gAug 6, 2021

Rest is necessary to go throughout your day,dear.They also should understand that,have you ever talked to them about it? How did it get to this point?

Previous Note Next Note

"One must be an inventor to read well. There is then creative reading as well as creative writing."

— Ralph Waldo Emerson