iwishiwaspretty's Dear Diary

I’m logging this because it’s probably the worst I’ve physically felt. I got my 2nd covid vaccine today (mandatory if I...

“Food is my enemy” “What nourishes me destroys me” “Nothing tastes as good as thin feels” “You deserve nothing for ea...

"how it changed my life forever...I know I should know better" oh God those lyrics are so true. Since February, I starte...

My hair has been falling out. It's dry, brittle, and when I run my fingers through it, about a couple finger widths of c...

I haven’t been able to throw up good for 2 days now (3 times) and it’s so frustrating. All that comes up is mostly water...

Bulimia is not drug addiction. This gets me so angry when people are treating me or other bulimics like a drug addict. N...

So my plan to not binge/purge for 3 days already failed. I had to run in the grocery store last nite for a couple things...

I just wanted to document how I feel physically because I write so much about the emotional part of bulimia. I feel phys...

It’s been a while. Not much new has happened. I have 5 days off in a row from work soon. I already planned in my head ho...

My body hurts. But I’m only 95.5 lbs. that’s not that thin when people with eating disorders get down to 60 lbs and less...

I wish I was anorexic and not bulimic. For many reasons but one is how other people perceive anorexia vs bulimia. Af...

I’m not sure that I can do this anymore. Every day is a struggle that is so pathetic. To eat or not to eat. I’m having t...

I ended up restricting food well yesterday. No binge/purge. I ate half a cup of beef broth (20 calories), a green powder...

I’m going to be graphic and describe what bulimia is really like. If I eat a bowl of fruit, or something “too much/f...

My bulimia (if that’s what it is) has evolved since I started in February. Now I have huge binges and I’ve spent almost...