KnyghtonGail's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, So my mammogram is coming up.  My first one, and I'm not even 40 yet.  Doctor ordered a screening to be done.  She was... concerned.  The closer it gets the more terrified I become.  not about the procedure, but about the results.  C

Dear Diary...things to think about -common contributors to depressionabusemedicationsconflictdeath or lossgeneticsmajor eventpersonal problemsserious illnesssubstance abusechronic painlack of sleepdecision fatigueanalysis paralysis -common contri

Dear Diary, It's been too long again.  As usual, things get hectic and I shut down.  Money, health, doctors, food, exercise, house, sleep...it's all crazy.  My husband even took me back to where we moved from to see our friends.  It was good to see

Dear Diary, Why is it that everything has to be overwhelming?  Medical issues, money, food, social media, people, society.  Just even trying to talk about simple things and people get up in arms.  Personally I like that I can debate with people and

Dear Diary, It has been way too long since I have allowed myself to STOP, and SIT, and WRITE...  I have so much in my head and on my heart...I don't even know where to start. HEALTH: So I have tried to do this VEGAN thing that my nephrologist h

Dear Diary,  Thankful for my weekend.  I know it's a Monday to the world but it's my day off =) Spent the day with my husband, cooking, and cleaning.  Playing catch-up with life so to speak.  Today we talked about some gaming.  Going to get a

Dear Diary, I have restarted this entry way too many times already.  I am reminded by a friend that journals/diarys don't have to be perfect, or even coherent... its a method of helping you think, a tool. It's not an art project or media to be c

Dear Diary, Have a surprise visit from some out of town friends.  Going to make me get out of the house... So happy to see them.  Love to cherish little moments.  My favorite ons are dancing with my husband... Even when there's no music =)

Dear Diary, Depression always seems to find a way to suck the life out of you.  Have you ever felt like if you sit in the shadows long enough that no one will notice you anymore, and then you can just disappear and no one will even think twice a

Dear Diary, Thank you again for being my repository of all the bad things in the day so that I can have a happy and smiling forward face to the world... I had my labs today.  Next month I can then do my review with my doctor on how they can out

Dear Diary, I have my monthly labs tomorrow... I just hope the numbers are looking better.  I just want them to be better.  I am so tired of being worried about what I eat, what I take, what I do... but this is my life now.  Wonder if everything I

Dear Diary, I wanted to try and attach a picture of the sunset that I took, but it's not letting me for some reason.  I see other people's attached pictures, I just don't know what it takes to make it happen. So I enjoyed the sunset again.  I

Dear Diary, Surrounded by family but still so depressed.  I love seeing my parents and trying to be here for them but the evidence of life...the fact of life...that we all get older, fall apart, and eventually pass on is all around.  I am so not

Dear Diary, I have been bad.  I haven't been writing.  I have been self conscious about some things.  This is suppose to be a platform that I don't have to be, that I can just vent about anything and everything.  I don't know why I let myself get i

Dear Diary, You know what I hate...food that makes me feel good emotionally but not good physically