Bhavu🤓's Dear Diary

The most social anxiety thing i do is that I could wake up at 2 am and I wouldn’t leave my room until 9 or 10 am so I don’t run into the maid . If someone walked on me while I’m eating my breakfast at the kitchen I feel like uhh my day is ruined now.

Dear Diary,  Hi, it has been a while since I wrote something in a diary. I feel empty I don't know why. I tried distracting myself from this feeling earlier, looks like it wasn't effective.  I really feel alone... Ps. I think this would b

Dear Diary, after my grandma died I being high and dumb made a will out of nowhere and sold her house for over 100 grand and I helped my mother-in-law sell her trailer but she told the cops I stole it and cashed a 100 grand insurance check anyway lo

Dear Diary, I dont know what the hell is wrong with me and i keep on fucking going back for more. i called rehab to get back on the list and then went to her house and then her son called and was begging her to get out of the dope game because appa

Dear Diary, 3 months ago when he left I relapsed and even after we got back together and I got clean for 5 days I started using agian and I haven't stopped...when I'm not on uppers I'm sleeping all the time,I get nothing done and all that honestly I

Dear Diary, he owes me for all these years of hell. And he is lucky that I never said anything bad about him and his parents and didn't start a trial because I went through meat grinder just because I wanted to love him and to live in his country. Ho

Dear Diary, I said that he acts like nothing strange has happenned. But he did this, I mean everything that I say, write or do repeats again and again because he wants me to be the past, even it is obvious that time difference between our countries i

Dear Diary, I thought idols love their job for opportunity to perform in front of thousand people. Then why all these bitches won awards for their new song dont even perform? They associate themselves with me again?! What do they want from me??They d

Dear Diary, This week wasn't so bad: I went to a dantist and spend only 6$, real luck for our times. I watched old USSR movies and was happy at that moment so even forgot about depressive thoughts. I've heard that people found virus in China that alr

Dear Diary, I will not care about numbers anymore because all this time I counted dates wrong. I still dont understand how so many people so easily learn math and all these formulas because I did it just how I saw it. I dont know when I die (accordin

Dear Diary, I thought about S and H that passed away last year and find more and more similarities of that dancer and his friend who I think are their male versions. Even their "birthday numbers": S(92) H (14) and dancers E (22) D (156), summarized n

Dear Diary, I wanted to be a singer when I was young and I even won on my city competition with song "Alteun ay"("golden moon" from bashkir language), after that I was singing in school chorus but stopped at 13 years because singing wasn't my passion

Dear Diary, I don't feel lonely anymore but I am mad because people lie all the time and they createmore and more bullshit to bring me down. After I complained about his bitches press made it look like my enemies are another girls??! Should I make a

Dear Diary, this girs who copy me are really think that they do something good. But they have no idea how hard to live with my pain because they have everything. Since everyone already know that these bitches sleep with all rapers I knew that a pink

Dear Diary, I am not satisfied of seeing bitches who copy me and my condition and even release songs, music videos and photoshoots with same face expression and same coloured clothes that I wear. Sluts are younger than me so I cannot scream at them o

Dear Diary, there is a mystery with number 7. This year I think everyone were shocked when seven-member boy groups disbanded. Was it the member's desicion or their producer's I think it was wrong. Don't they understand that destroying magic of number

Dear Diary, I am tired to be a moon. I really hate couples that show their love in front of me when I just pretend that I care about their feelings. Of course I think that I should live in another place that's why I feel good only when I watch americ

Dear Diary, I live in fear of my mother's relatives (her brother, wife and two sons) all my life. Of course I visited them on birthdays and national celebrations because she has no one exept them,her mom and me. But I forced myself to be polite and c

Dear Diary, I am so scared of what happens nowadays. Famous people die every day and they weren't even in depression, all looked positive and energetic, why would they end up like this? I deleted my instagram account because I am lonely and don't tru