Dear Diary, I am tired to be a moon. I really hate couples that show their love in front of me when I just pretend that I care about their feelings. Of course I think that I should live in another place that's why I feel good only when I watch american movies. In reality boys cheat on you with your closest friends or possible friends or your celebrity crushes. It's so unfair. I started feel better when I changed my name to "Kenia", I was fangirling over Barbie since childhood and she always was positive and kind, faithful person. Loving unreal characters or what you imagine of a person is easier than to face reality. So when someone (no matter how: through their friends or TV shows or songs, music videos or by using voices of younger versions of themselves) says that he doesn't love you it ruines everything that you build for years, you try to fit in a role that he choosed for you (because you don't want to be his enemy so agree with his opinion) or worse: you are searching for him everywhere and hope that his another version can choose you but they all repeat the same life and date the same type. I thought that he at least says that all his bitches mean nothing to him after I was fighting for 7 years but since my life didn't change and he still fanboying over that bigeyedsuicidalblackclothesedannoyingmainstreamfaces I also pretend that his reality is not my world, just a bad ending movie or music that I can't listen.