Dear Diary, I live in fear of my mother's relatives (her brother, wife and two sons) all my life. Of course I visited them on birthdays and national celebrations because she has no one exept them,her mom and me. But I forced myself to be polite and careful. They screamed at me since childhood until this year because I don't have a job and money on presents for mom and grandmom. The worst thing is that we live in the same district and even in the same house with one of their son and his wife. They married in 2017 and I supported them but didn't say a speech because I really don't like him and his brother with their parents. So I thought they would finally fuck off but no. Last year uncle and aunt came to my house without inviting and argued with me again. It happened on the same day as my boy crush with his band released new album. I promised that I will search for a job and they gone. But later uncle came to my room in dirty clothes and layed down on my bed!!!! I said "get out!" and he is like "you think its normal that there is black thick slit along the edge of the ceiling?" I said "not your bussiness get out!" He started touching me from back: trying to take my phone. I screamed and cried but he is big and ugly so he took my phone and leaved. Then my mom came I told what happened and she did nothing because there are no men exept her brother and his two sons, she always on their side. Next morning he returned my phone but it didn't make sence. They always appear when I visit my crush's fanclub or check his instagram. When I first time saw a boy and made a collage of his baby pictures for his birthday (on tumblr) my aunt and uncle called me and screamed fpr two ours telling that I am useless, stupid, ungrateful etc., that I spend my time on doing nothing when I owe money to my mom for all these years. I cried on my boy's birthday, what can be worse??! Then they started use my obsession with him against me because his birthday numbers are similar to uncle's numbers and boy's friends/bitches have similar personality as my aunt, she also uses her number3. When he came to my country and had curly hair she also traveled to Moscow that year (she had my number7). She always uses this to destroy our so called couple. I hate aunt and uncle even if they are tolerant (because they have personalities of two old men). Their sons are not better. I still don't understand why their names became so popular all around the world, my boy even liked posts of record companies with same name and movies with characters with the same names took awards. At first I thought that aunt, uncle and their sons contacted my boy through instagram because why would he came alone to my country and wasn't on dance competition with his friends but walked somewhere else??! Because since that day someone spread the rumours that I am "down" when I am normal. Actually aunt few years ago forced me to go to psychiatric clinic, I passed a lot of tests and doctor said I am normal just have no motivation to work. She was so angry, of course her family wanted to shove me to asylum and make my mom rewrite my room for her son (because I cannot pay). They bulled me for so long so after 2017 when they accidentally stopped calling every month I was so shocked. Maybe because of act of terrorism 3.4.17 (if my boy and his bitch would get married their birthday numbers are 34.17). Also my aunt's taste is similar to that bitch (that's why I wrote curse rude comments on russian under her pictures: i thought she and my aunt try to transform my boy into uncle or his son because of same birthday numbers ). Honestly she's so obsessed with me (she still collects all my childhood pictures from their feasts when me and my mom came to them on her computer. It's not normal, I think she's pedo or lesbian. Once when I was at my grandmother's house half naked and didn't know that aunt and uncle will come, they entered and started filming me on her phone. I screamed at her to stop doing it but she laughed and beated my hands to not let her stop. I said she is pervert bitch but she just laughed). I hate them so much.
Last year my house burned down and we spend two months for trying to sell it and buy new flat. It's weird but on websites there were no normal offers in districts that I prefer, so they recommended person who finds houses to my mom and, what a surprise, the only normal flat was at their son's house. I even asked this person to search flats that don't have 1 or 3 as their number but, what a surprise, I live in a flat with these numbers. Everything against me, we even registered our flat on 7august (34.17 again as if we live in my boy's and his bitch's house). It's so cold here and I am always afraid to meet uncle,aunt and their sons on the streets so sit at locked home.