Dear Diary, I thought about S and H that passed away last year and find more and more similarities of that dancer and his friend who I think are their male versions. Even their "birthday numbers": S(92) H (14) and dancers E (22) D (156), summarized number is 7 (my "birthday number"). So if they tried to tell me that I should choose between two girls and two boys whom I know only from pictures and I should've choosed S and H because I am homophobe or because I didn't have feelings for these boys or I wasn't friend with these girls, so people blame me for not loving or they thought they got married "inside me" in 2016 and all this time my body was a place to marry all of them??!! Because last year S and H was 7 and if they passed away then I died too (because we supported same idols and had same taste). These girls and dancer were friends with another idol who passed away after 8 months and 10 days after his birthday (his "number" was 33). If boy whom I liked can count then his so called best friend (asshole male version of my female enemies) might die on 16 january. I won't cry because I hate all people who stole my man and made him gay. But if he has brains he wont die because my boy will die after him so I will have no choice than to die too. Happy end