Dear Diary, This week wasn't so bad: I went to a dantist and spend only 6$, real luck for our times. I watched old USSR movies and was happy at that moment so even forgot about depressive thoughts. I've heard that people found virus in China that already killed many people. I hope everyone has a place to stay while this happenning. Soon is Grammy and Oscar ceremonies but no one is anticipating and I see how every day news sites become more and more empty, as if they write news only for themselves. In my city people also disappear somewhere, what is going on?!
I dye my hair since I was 12 years old so I wasn't "clean" redhaired, always brown or dark blonde. But people only care about childhood pictures and past so I never was normal in their eyes. If I say strange things or walk alone anywhere or too obsessed with boys or do weird stuff, they automatically make me "wrong", "psycho", "clown" (because of make up not sence of humor which I don't really have) or "down" and "third person". It is unfair, so I stopped talk to people and now feel better because in my life I am main character, not "behind the scene".