Stop Thinking's Dear Diary

I kissed a guy last night. I hate myself.

Cute barista is not here. Dangit. I look good too. Its the first cold day of the year and im in docs and a turtle neck....

Hey, it's been a while. I'm at DOCR. I feel... I don't know. Somber is the closest I can think to describe it. Ally...

Cass ended things. I am so confused and hurt and lost. I want to crumble into myself.  I started typing everything o...

- been depressed my entire life - deep history of family mental health issues (sister has BPD 1, father has attempted s...

I'm writing this in prep for therapy. I haven't been in something like a month, which is the longest time since I st...

I'm losing hope. Everything is pointless. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I waste away each day....

I am so bored. I feel numb. Everything feels pointless. Even writing this is pointless. I want to panic and run from...

I'm supposed to write so I write. It's not about finding the most captivating thing in the world. It's about doing a...

So Cass and I had sex the other day. It felt really comfortable and easy. I think it's because we had fooled around befo...

I got released from the psych ward today after about a week. I still haven't processed my emotions about it all. I'm wai...

I don't want to write. Ally was still signed into her Spotify on my TV. That wasn't good. I've never snooped once or...

The last week has been rough. The plumbing issues lead to a full blown house spiral which lead to a mental spiral. Add t...

It's nights like these where I would have normally broken. It's nights like these that I knew would come and I'd have to...

I went on a date with a girl named Johnna (like Mayor, not Hill) yesterday. We went axe throwing. We kissed at the end....