I don't want to write.
Ally was still signed into her Spotify on my TV. That wasn't good. I've never snooped once or sought her out because I know I can't handle it. I know how bad it would be for me and I've been proud of my discipline. It just sucks that this happened. I felt the weight of the universe on my chest for about five minutes and then I moved on. That's good I guess?
So I'm subbing for Cass now. This is going to be interesting. I think I'll like it. It sounds exciting for many reasons, but I'm determined not to make the same mistakes that happened with Ally. I want this to be a good thing so fucking bad. I just want to have fun and experience life. Cass has a much better head on her shoulders than Ally. The communication from the start has been phenomenal and everything is rooted in friendship first. With Ally I barely knew her name before she pulled me into the bathroom. It just wasn't how I'd ever want to start things, especially not at that point in my life. This is more controlled and respectful with much better boundaries and far more exciting. I'm cautiously optimistic.
There is sewer water coming out of the drain and out into my basement. I should just email my landlord god damnit.