Carol's Dear Diary

Index
12th July 2025
Dear JK,              You always end up hurting me. Unintentionally I know but you do, you do hurt me very often. You hurt me today too it's hard to explain this feeling, but it's burdening and it feels like being crushed by a mountain. Sometimes I
Jul 11
6th July 2025
Dear JK,             I can't sleep again, today when I came back home from this fashion show I was really tired but the moment I hit the bed it was all gone. And now I am just praying to God to give me some sleep. And then you came to my mind like
Jul 05
2nd July 2025
Dear JK,              There's so much Insanity in this world and it's pitiful, you and I are insane alike. But we would be deemed less insane more normal in the eyes of the society, because we both wear a mask and our insanities are like a ghost liv
Jul 02
10th june 2025
Dear JK,             The world is two-faced and so are you. Time is ticking for both of us, the difference is that you can't wait for it to pass and I wish it freezes tonight. ~yj
Jun 10
5th May 2025
Dear JK,             I have stopped liking birthdays a long time ago. Today was no different, yet another birthday went in tears. I am a fool you know thinking every year that this one will be different and yet they are all the same.  And so I wish
May 05
29th April 2025
Dear JK,             I often wonder what are we, I have always asked this question to myself. But now more than ever. Sometimes I think that you are the better version of me, one that I will never get to be. It's because we are so similar so damn s
Apr 29
25th February 2025
Dear jk,             Who am I? Am I still that little golden child? The star of everyone's eyes? I know I am not. I bought this upon myself. I wish I could go back to being the golden child, the same child that gave me trauma, the same child who set
Feb 24
19th February 2025
Dear jk,             You would never know the feeling of being struck from all the sides. It's like floating on a piece of wood in the ocean during a storm. I don't know how to swim no one ever taught me how to. So now that I am stranded in the ocea
Feb 19
February 11, 2025
Dear jk,             What is wrong with me?
Feb 10
January 30, 2025
Dear JK,             It's supposedly my big day tomorrow. Well it kinda is but my guilty conscience won't allow me to be excited or Happy. I wish I have fun tomorrow I really wanna have fun.  I wanna be happy for sometime and forget about all the w
Jan 30
26th January 2025
Dear JK,                 It's one of those nights where I can't sleep. I don't know why though I mean sure there are so much on my mind lately but sleeping at night has never been a problem for me. It's just that some nights are harder than others.
Jan 25
12th January 2025
Dear JK,                 I am scared, I am so fucking scared and I am not doing well. I just want to tell everyone that I am not perfect like they think I am. And I want a break, a long one because I don't know what to do anymore I am so scar
Jan 12
31 December 2024
Dear JK,           End of another year. And I survived this one too like I always do. As the time goes by I am starting to feel numb I am starting to care less about things and yet deep down all of them leave a scar. This year was also horrible espec
Dec 31
13th September 2024
Dear JK,                 I feel so many things at once that when I try to write them down I start to have no words to describe  them so most of the time I don't.  Like right now I have so much to say and yet I can't say a word. Funny,right? I wish
Sep 13
9th September 2024
Dearest JK,              Happy belated birthday. I remember you once said to me that you don't think of your birthday as a special day you just see at as day when you were born at that time I thought how dare you take something  for so granted. You a
Sep 09
May 19, 2025
Dear Diary, I am not okay at all...I am unable to sleep...I am unable to focus on anything in life...I don't want to get involved in any kind of preparations.
May 19
March 20 & March 21, 2025
Dear Diary, "Decisions are the hardest moves to make, especially when it's a choice between what you want and what is right." Hi, this is a very late entry... not in the sense that it's 3:28 am...post midnight...haha... I wanted to write but
Apr 26
April 08, 2025
Dear Diary,  Hi, (00:38) I'm feeling quite low today, I feel like crying... Most important, I don't know how I feel, idk if I am happy or not, Idk if I will be happy or not, sometimes I feel why am I doing this... Everything is okay still I feel
Apr 07
March 22, 2025
Dear Diary, Hi, I am back! I have many things to write...but not right now... Today morning, when I woke up, I found that ohh shit, my voice is gone. I had sore throat from last two days but today I was so difficult for me to speak...I am
Mar 22
March 19, 2025
Dear Diary, Hi, I am tired as fuck, I tried to sleep around 2_2:30 am... after taking melatonin...then I didn't have that sound sleep, I woke up around 5 am with his alarm...then I slept... but mummy woke me up... still I took my time to get up...If
Mar 19
March 18, 2025
Dear Diary, A day I won't forget...maybe I will forget the date but I won't forget the day... I was all anxious from last few days since holi only...I wasn't able to make up my mind...I even spent aroua,nd ₹250 to chat with an astrologer in Mor
Mar 18
March 17, 2025
Dear Diary, It hurts... it's hurts me so much... I have turned so unproductive, restless...I feel so claustrophobic during evening everyday. I want to cry, I cry sometimes, I supress my emotions, all I want to live alone at this time bu
Mar 17
March 17, 2025
Dear Diary, I am writing about last week that is from Thursday to Monday, 06th - 10th. On Thursday around this time only, I told him that I want to come to meet him maybe only for a day but I want to com e...book my ticket for today...and he did s
Mar 17
March 14, 2025
Dear Diary, I do not want to write here anymore but sometimes you need to express what are you feeling to understand yourself. Dear diary, I am little okay right now but I wasn't fine since last 4-5 hrs. Nothing new, same thing.  I know what I
Mar 14
March 02, 2025
Dear Diary, Har shakhs apni khushi chahta hai, Hum agar udaas hai toh yeh humara masla hai.!!  Hi, kal se hi kitna kuch likhna hai, kitna saara baat hai mann me, what happened yesterday, what happened today, what series I watched and what I
Mar 02
February 28, 2025
Dear Diary, I heard these lines on a reel - " Tumhe jo mila hai, wo kisi ne khoya hoga, Jiske sath tum har pal muskurate ho, koi uske liye roya hoga, Har koi haara hai yahan mohabbat me, Jiske sath tum yaadein bana rahe ho, Koi uski yaadein l
Feb 28
February 26, 2025
Dear Diary, Hi, Today was a okay okay...I woke up quite early even before the alarm... around 6 am... I finished most of the work for today at time and thought I would sleep but wasn't feeling that well to sleep again... something was off with m
Feb 26
February 25, 2025
Dear Diary, Hi, I don't know why people don't write, I want to read other people stories... "And when they refuse to choose you, choose distance. Because staying won't make a difference. I know those feelings are precious, but, my love, so is y
Feb 25
February 24, 2025
Dear Diary, Hi! No more quotes :) Dear diary, I want to name you something, actually when I used to write journal in proper diary,my diary then had a name... But naming everything doesn't make any sense right... it's cool this way only. I
Feb 24
February 24, 2025
Dear Diary, Hi, It's 4:15 am in the morning and this note is about 23rd and 24th post midnight. I know after this note I might become a bad person but it's okay I don't care. I thought I would work on Sunday but anything such thing couldn'
Feb 23