Dear Diary,
I heard these lines on a reel -
" Tumhe jo mila hai, wo kisi ne khoya hoga,
Jiske sath tum har pal muskurate ho,
koi uske liye roya hoga,
Har koi haara hai yahan mohabbat me,
Jiske sath tum yaadein bana rahe ho,
Koi uski yaadein le kar soya hoga "
Hi!
Dear diary, the morning feels so heavy today, why the nights are not longer,,,
I hate this weird feeling in the morning... feeling restless, heavy heart and Idk about the exact terms for it. I hate this void in the morning...I don't know why I feel so much emotions...why I am not a firm hearted person, I want to move on but at the same time I don't want to move on...I don't know what else I am waiting for...I have all clear answers, I have all clarity about things... what's gonna happen and not... still why I feel so much of resistance.
I want to wake up happy so that I can have a good day, but waking up with this weird feeling, emptiness and sadness inside just...
Yesterday I wanted to write about different things, about my finances, how I need to save money and how I need to have savings, how much I need to earn, how should I buckle up and how anxious I have been with having a lot of thoughts but less execution and all and how I was feeling yesterday and only good thing that happened etc but later everything became about something else, the only hot topic in my life. And there also I don't know what I want, yes right now I don't even know what I want, I know what I want but I don't know if I can get it ever or even if I get it, will it be all good for me coz obvious reasons...
So should I go for something and give it a chance what life is bringing to me... Coz I feel there I may get things what I have wanted except one that is him SS ...rest I may get warmth, no unnecessary hatred, idk yet but I get that vibes those instincts...so maybe here no one is gonna hate for no reason, without any fault...as I don't have any feelings or expectations here so it is quite easy for me, my way or highway, I don't need people to like or my family...