Preyasi's Dear Diary

Index
December 08, 2023
Dear Diary, I think I know that I was complete n enough before SM came to my life in school. But now after him I think I'm left with a hole even after almost 3 years.  I'm happy but I feel there's something that I crave but I want to let that go but
Dec 08
December 05, 2023
Dear Diary, I cleared MPSET 🥳🥳 I'm sooo happy. Rishita n I both cleared.  So I talked to my Prof, she called me... She said to apply in her university cause the HOD there is Vishal sir. He was our HOD in our graduation college. I hope on the basis
Dec 05
December 03, 2023
Dear Diary, sooo, S is done with me finally I guess. Oh god! 😆 I'm not even upset about it. I feel so relieved that he's going to block me. He hasn't yet but he will I know.  I was not feeling it with him n he's also 2 years younger than me. I know
Dec 03
December 01, 2023
Dear Diary, days like today make me feel grateful to have my family, they remind me that I don't need anything when I've my family with me.😊 Today was as much inconsequential as much it was profound. We did nothing special yet in the presence of
Dec 01
December 01, 2023
Dear Diary, yesterday was a bit gloomy day for me. I kept thinking about him, what would have been if he'd not married. So I missed him throughout the day & didn't do a single productive thing only made my heart hurt with the book which makes you hur
Dec 01
November 27, 2023
Dear Diary, these two days have been rollercoaster of family emotions. I've feasted on conflicts (😂😆 I know mtlb I was just eating up all the drama unfolding in my family involving mummy n taiji n bhabhi n dipti bhabhi) n then I also got fed up wit
Nov 27
November 25, 2023
Dear Diary, I didn't realize the gravity of the situation until I saw him lying on his funeral pyre, lifeless...  Ineffable...
Nov 25
November 25, 2023
Dear Diary, dadaji is no more. He died today.  This feels surreal. 😵 We're leaving for his last rites.  I have no words to express what I'm feeling. We weren't close but I know he loved us... Me.  He cared for me.  I remember he taught me cycli
Nov 25
November 20, 2023
Dear Diary, yrrr false alaaaarmmmm. Mp set result aa to gya but vo bhi sirf 3 subjects ka jisme mera subject nhi he. I got so excited I called bee bee also but sb fussss ho gya. I dunno kb aaega mere subject ka result. So format is like pehle cut off
Nov 20
November 19, 2023
Dear Diary, he stopped altogether. Yes it was me who didn't wanna stay more but he still wanted me to wait a few days. & my mistake was that I was expecting, waiting.  Yesterday I felt that he has someone else in his life, maybe he still does. I cal
Nov 19
November 18, 2023
Dear Diary, yesterday good things happened.  One of them was meeting with bee bee's mamiji who is a Judge. She was amazing. I felt so good & peaceful talking to her.  The other was MPCJ notification came but I found out that I'm ineligible to gi
Nov 17
November 16, 2023
Dear Diary, I had the most joyful days this week, tiring but still joyful. My diwali festival went way better than I thought it would.  It's just I've been thinking about shivanshu & I. I feel he's not that invested in us as much as I'd like him to
Nov 16
November 13, 2023
Dear Diary, it was one of the best diwali I got to celebrate today without my mental drama. The whole thing revolves around: I was(am) happy, I enjoyed, I shared, we had fun together- the whole family.  I was starting to think yesterday that this ye
Nov 12
November 10, 2023
Dear Diary, So I had a dream yesterday during my day sleep and I'm just so grateful about it. The dreams are a bit rare but most welcomed, so so soooo much. Yesterday, baba came to meet me in my dream as bhimashankar shivling. Actually, it was a beau
Nov 10
November 07, 2023
Dear Diary, Thank god! I did not make myself crazy after him. I thought that maybe finally I'll get the love of my life, I was even ready to be patient for my love life to unfold into a forever of this lifetime. But seeing the pattern, I'm not sure t
Nov 07