Dear Diary, I finally completed my work yesterday. I stayed home and I had decided that it's time to finish all the internship work. I still have to review the answers cause I couldn't solve some questions and others' I just want to review to check for any mistake.
Now that this work is done I can continue my exams prep and clear it as well. 'Cause if I could just clear this one exam(ugc-net), it would be such a great achievement for me and I would be able to apply to colleges as an assistant professor or better yet I could teach on YouTube with the credibility of ugc-net certificate.
It's going good. Life is slow rn but I'm loving this time. You don't get this time everyday to feel that you're fine now, you're happy, you've faith in yourself.
I realised yesterday that having faith in myself truly, completely is the real love I give or have for myself rather than trying to love myself in some other ways. Those ways are also important but I think having faith is the ultimate thing.
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My mind has stopped battering me with the thoughts of my ex n other people who are/were of no good to me. But the thing I feel is that now that my mind is empty of those constant useless thoughts, what do I do with the emptiness, I guess sow a garden of beautiful, useful, cherishing thoughts? I think it's a good idea.
So I saw this post yesterday, that if I need to upgrade my life then I need to let go of the older version of me and embrace the new version. & I felt that, oh yes! That's what's been happening to me, I'm actually upgrading my old version.
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