October 31,2023
Dear Diary, children are so sweet & warm.
I felt that for the first time when I was with my little brother shyam. When he was little I used to take him to the park n we played on swings. One evening when we were going back home from park, he was tired n I was holding him in my arms & he laid his head on my shoulder & held me closer.
Then, with my big brother's son, since he was a baby, he so excitedly and willingly came to me, he is the first baby to make me feel so loved... I love my baby Raghav.
I went to a group vrindavan trip last year at this time, there was a lady with 2 kids, girl & boy. So we were all stuffed 😆 in one auto rikshaw with other people. Both the kids were asleep, so lady was holding the baby boy & we took baby girl so she could rest, once we reached our place, I held the little girl, she was sleepy & she hugged me like monkey, I felt so so soooo damn warm n I didn't wanna put her down. I took her all the way to our rooms.
I really wanna be a mom someday n I hope that my babies love me as much as I do them. But first I'm waiting for my only brother to have a baby, I so wanna be the best bua to the kids. & I hope that the first one is a girl, please God 🙏.