Tonotbescared's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, i need to start forgiving myself for mistakes i have in situations so she stops going thru it again trying to make it right.

Dear Diary, i am weak, every little step away from you, causes panic and shakes i couldn't seem to control, i would gladly sleep away my pain, but how can i when you haunt me in my dreams, and wake me up with my heart banging my chest, and mo

Dear Diary, to not be scared anymore, being alone might be scary, but that's like the coolest shit ever. p.s i am still scared.

So, hey. I am here again, after 6 months. Still figuring out life but getting so much better at it every single day. Before putting my thoughts to word right now, I went through all my previous drafts and it made me realise something of how even bein

'scary', 'vulnerable', 'fragile', 'emotional' I don't related to these words or atleast not Infront of people. As long as I can remember I've been that strong and confident person and lucky for me I never had to learn how be them, all my life I have

Is it okay to trust you?  and by trust I don't just mean loyalty but my emotions too, my understanding and all the sacrifices I will be willing to make. I will provide the trust but would I ever get it back? I will provide for your good and bad days

After years of pain through life, fucked up relationships mentality torturing boyfriends, I gave up on love. I was still girl that wanted the pretty dates and endless love with all best of memories. I knew from a very young age that I needed a love t

Sometime I wonder why I even entered into this thing. I know I signed up for this and but it’s like too much to handle at times, especially when we cross through the insecurities part. Feeling the way you felt in the past and realising that the most

Most of my life's trauma comes because of my mom and the fun fact of it is I have spent almost all my life trying to impress her but I don't think its ever gonna be enough. You know that feeling where you wish you lost a few pounds or just looked tha

Since the day I met you, my life has changed. I always knew I deserved better but as you came into my life I'm convinced that I deserve nothing but the best. There never goes a day by where you don't make me feel like I am the luckiest person that I

This is gonna too cliché, what I am gonna say next. It's been two months now of me dating him. This guy just suddenly came into my life out of nowhere, making me believe in that cringy love again. The Love, which was it for me and the same one on whi

Hard to love She looks flawless from the outside, holding the perfect image.  The far you stay, the more you stray the closer you come, the more you burn.  Fire in her soul holds the flame. Flames of chaos, resistance and lack of trust, not

HARD TO LOVE  I wanna stop for a while, cause somehow with each day passing I believe its not easy to love me.  A friend of mine made me realize how suicide is a selfish act and I just hate it when he is right. It's a way of making people regret

Maybe I am or maybe I am not, but when is love ever easy? It's a hard pill to swallow when people say I am hard to love and it somehow makes me believe that I have been the reason why people gave up on me, and that's so hard to accept. Would I do th

Dear Diary, Today was a day full of work, the waves of emotions I feel all the time. I have realized throughout life that I feel too much and its quite scary when I understand its intensity. My panic and anxiety attacks are now become more than eve

Dear Diary, He finally said it, actually the real thing is I finally accepted it. The way I feel for him is really different, he in ways reminds me of what love actually meant to me. On my way through life, I forgot the meaning of my love. I lose

All my life I have waited for my happy moment. I still remember a few years back I was asked to post a picture of the time I was at my happiest, and with the level of excitement I was looking for that one picture, but, I couldn't find it. All I found

Dear Diary, It's been long since I last checked in, and I have this habit of not checking in as soon as good and different things starts happening. I met this guy, gonna refer to him as 'pretty boy'. He makes me feel different, I have liked people