After years of pain through life, fucked up relationships mentality torturing boyfriends, I gave up on love. I was still girl that wanted the pretty dates and endless love with all best of memories. I knew from a very young age that I needed a love that consumed me and gave me some sort of security cause that is what I have always craved.
I used to look at these perfect relationships, the ones where they were actually in love with each other and not playing with their partner for some temporary shit. It was simple and soothing, all sorted no lies no extra fake drama, it was just pure love. I considered them so lucky and for a very long time I kept looking for that in so many different places which led me to a ton of heartbreaks and mental breakdowns. All that cheating, lying and manipulations made me somewhere give up on love. But then I met this charming human, but the problem was he was not looking for love, actually not anything. H e was the version I was looking for. He fell in love with all versions of me, the ones I decided to hide from the whole world thinking it was embarrassing. It felt like he picked every part of me and started fixing it without even asking. I started healing and I still am.
I just hope this prettiness of a human gets how lucky I am to have him in my beautiful life. He has my whole freaking heart and I don't think so I can now live without him, I just don't want to. My life is so empty without him, and I know for a fact that no one, literally no one could ever replace his position in my life and love me the way he does.
The 13 year me found home in him and I don't think she has ever felt this safe.
So, to that man who loves me like this, I hope he knows he is my everything and how grateful I am every single day of mine life.