Jenn ✌🏼's Dear Diary

It's almost 10am. I didn't sleep last night.  Didn't even lay down actually but today I'm feeling good 🙂❤ Praise Jesus right?! Lol Plans are tackling this laundry and cleaning this house!! Things always fall apart when I'm having struggles...  not g

I needed space, I needed love, I needed timeAnd I never understood how you could treat me so heartlessUntil I realized that you just needed mineThat's what I mean by "loving you never helps"'Cause I just can't decide between loving you or myselfI jus

Hello Diary,  Well I'm feeling much better than I was on the 12th but also feeling so incomplete and unsure on so many things.  When things are left unfinished or open ended my brain goes crazy!!! Then of course that makes me overwhelmed and overwhel

Dear Diary,                        Fuck emotional pain.  Fuck the mess I am.   I'm exhausted from just being me.  The only peace I'll know is death and that's so tremendously sad to me. Why can't happiness be in my deck of cards? A life of feeli

Dear Diary, Hey, I am back here.  I went to watch Samay raina's comedy show today. We went out yesterday night also.  Things haven't changed much from the last time i wrote.  But it feels less heavy now.  I watched a video on from National G

Dear Diary, I'm feeling strange about what I want to do.Something in me has changed. Until now, I was always wanting to learn something new, to do something new. But these days, I think I am finding it hard to believe in anything.  It all feels

Hi! No excuse for being away from you for so long.  I'll dive straight into it.  I fel life is different, noh no, not in practical sense, but deep down..., deep down life feels different.  I feel until now i have only been thinking zbout ho

Dear Diary, Even good things end.  As the universe would have it, I randomly started reading about krishna das's life, he was married ONCE, To sharda devi, Sharda devi used to do kirtans and brooklyn yoga school and i came across this note o

Dear Diary, Hey 👋 This is the longest break i have taken from you, i know no applogies needed from you. But you know... I missed you.  Honestly i kept running away from you, feeling not so confiedent to face you, but i know like always

Dear Diary, It has been so long, since i spoke to you last. Honestly, i missed you. Very often. There were many days, on which i wanted to tell you all about the day.  There are people who i talk with and share things, and many of those underst

Dear Diary, Things are going well again. I told you, it's a cycle of happiness and sadness.  I am listening to Iktara on loop today, its a personal recording, She recorded and sent me this. I now think, she is everything i wished from a partner

Dear Diary, I miss her again today... Dont judge me, dont call me crazy please. I feel what i feel.  Thinking about the times she tried.  Tried to be who i wanted her to be... That's all.  Goodnight

Dear Diary, Now i am going completely crazy. It's 3 o clk, i cannot sleep.  Things feel just so mixed up right now, i dont know what to believe in, or how to live at all.  I'll start from my day. In the morning i was thinking about my value

Dear Diary, Hi... I don't know why this happens, somedays it become so difficult just to live. I want the time to fade, yet the fading time gives me anxiety.  I am kind of feeling alone today, i know there is mom and sweety and there is

Dear Diary, I Woke up early today. Yayyyyy... I also went for jogging yesterday.  Yesterday was overall a descent day, at work, i focussed only on one thing, did that okayishly.  In night, chatted with Niranjan. Also tagged with sambit sir fo

Dear Diary, The whole routine went flying somewhere in the last week.  No excercice, no journalling, unhealthy eating, no meditation, no going to office, sleeping late, and no guilt for any of this =D. But i am back.  I looked at myself to

Dear Diary, It was quiet descent day.  I woke up slightly early.  Did not do exercise - Taking rest, don't feel guilty about it.  Started my day with just one goal of finishing one task. And i finished it by eod.  In the evening,

Dear Diary, I am getting better at maintaining routine, I am forming habits.  I think it's primarily because i don't have too many things to do in my mind. And maybe i know my priorities better now.  I didn't go to office today. Worked from

Dear Diary, I need to have a lot of strength to believe in god today.  Once again, i am in search of the light.  You'll call me crazy, and believe me, i think that about myself too right now. That i am crazy, dumb, dead drop stupid.  First i