Dear Diary,
Things are going well again. I told you, it's a cycle of happiness and sadness.
I am listening to Iktara on loop today, its a personal recording, She recorded and sent me this. I now think, she is everything i wished from a partner, in relationship.
I think, she doesn't think as deep as me, she'll probably wont understand me completely all the time, but maybe it's not a neccesary thing. I think she cares a lot, and she feels like someone who i can trust and care for and love.
It does feel like life's another gift to me, just a month ago, i was so hopeless, and life gave me this...
Now i know, from all the things i have seen, that it won't be all good forever. Bad times will come again too, (I know you'll shout here on me that why am i always so negative). I just know that, i shouldn't be too excited nor too sad. And i just keep reminding myself that. (Maybe in front of other people i should talk less about negavtive stuff. It wont be lying or pretending, it's easy just dont talk about all your fears all the time). She thinks that too. I dont want to project my fears on someone else. I am going to work on it.
Anyway, rn, i am happy.
Thanks Dad
Love
--panda--