Xhopefulprincess's Dear Diary

Yesterday I applied for readmission to my university. I dropped out after the Fall 2019 term (4.5 years of enrollment) with only 4 credit hours between me and graduating. I was drowning in stress (PTSD) and working and ended up failing the classes I

One of my coworkers died yesterday. It was very sudden and unexpected. My team lead told me about it right after she came in the door and I had already been clocked in for about 8 or 9 minutes.  I was shocked. Another coworker asked how she had died

Woo. I'm 25 now.  Da got me sick on my birthday last Saturday. He didn't have anything too bad and neither did I but I still lost my voice. I worked the two days after my birthday and then after work on Monday, Da and I had a little hotel vacation. I

So it turns out I'm only 5/10 of a match for my sister (C), which is a relief for me, but the real relief is that they told her there are thousands of 10/10 matches in the registry. I'm glad that I was able to avoid the entire situation of being forc

Where do I even start with the mess my life has been since my last entry?  I think I've been processing life at lease somewhat well so I haven't felt an overwhelming desire to make an entry, but I've also just been lazy. Now that I feel like writing

Today was a rough day.  Work was hella busy. I barely had time to breathe. I'm supposed to get two paid 15 minute breaks every day, but I only got one. I understood that we were busy, but you can bet your ass that the ass-kissers and bosses got all o

I've been so very tired lately. It's like I'm back in high school where I'd procrastinate sleep, go to sleep late, and stay tired at school, except now it's work. I don't know why I'm like this. And if I do go to sleep at a decent time, I'll wake up

I've been busy and some stuff has happened.  Tuesday, September 28th was a fun day. Da and I went to a mall, specifically for Build-A-Bear, because I had never been and he wanted to make an Umbreon. We bought lots of stuff and I had some pretzel bite

We got the results for our covid tests just slightly more than 24 hours after taking them. We were both negative, so that's great. We are back at work again today. Sundays are honestly the worst days to work. Loads of people come in after church and

Everything was fine yesterday morning. My dad and I got up and got ready for work, no big deal.  For some reason, I felt off, like I was forgetting something. Maybe it had to do with the fact that I didn't feel the urge to poop yet even though poopin

I have been so completely overwhelmed with anxiety. My first day of work as a self-checkout person was awful. (September 17th) I have a lovely coworker and she helped me so much and was so nice to me. She was an absolute blessing.  Some higher-ups cr

Went to work for a few hours today to watch some training videos, set up direct deposit and such.  I was fine at work, but when I got home, anxiety hit me like a shit ton of bricks. I don't know why it happened right then. I felt like I was going to

The struggles are only just beginning. Good news, my dad and I got jobs. He got his old job back and I got a new one. I'm going to be working on the front end, meaning self checkout. It's better than being a regular cashier, for sure, but it is still

I feel anxious. High level anxiety. Tomorrow my dad and I are gonna go try to get our pre-covid jobs back.  The job I interviewed for recently said they would call me within 72 hours. They never did.  My favorite pizza place sent me a message on Augu

There are so many things I want to update about, but I have so little motivation.  I feel like I'm running out of time to do stuff that I want to do. Federal unemployment benefits have ended as of September 4th and now I'm in legitimate job search mo