Xhopefulprincess's Dear Diary

August 02, 2020
Well, today was the day that DMcD moved from living 20-30 minutes away from me to 3.5-4 hours away from me.  I wish he would've told me that he was going to be moving earlier on in our conversations. I had my distance range on bumble set to "within x
Aug 03
July 29, 2020
Something spooky happened to me in the past hour and I feel the need to document it. I don't particularly believe in spirits or ghosts or anything mostly because it just scares the shit out of me and I don't understand it, but there's gotta be some k
Jul 29
July 27, 2020
I want to be healed already.  Today will be a week since I received my sunburn.  Everything except my chest is mostly healed now. Last night I peeled the dead skin off of my arms. Peeling the skin is the best part of having sunburn. It's so satisfyin
Jul 27
July 22, 2020
As I mentioned in my previous entry, my family wanted to go rivertubing on Monday (July 20th) and we did. Just my parents, J, and myself.  It was a fun trip. J said, "it was a nice river day." God, he is the cutest 5 year old.  I was happy to make th
Jul 22
July 15, 2020
My family wants to go on a day-cation on Monday (July 20th). We will be going rivertubing in the town next to my college town but we will spend most of the day in the college town. My mom has already made reservations and started the process for rent
Jul 16
July 15, 2020
I've bought some more things in the past few hours (it is now 4:30am).  There is one thing I bought that I can't really explain why I bought it or what it is. It could be related to Hinduism. I was searching ebay for things carved out of citrine, my
Jul 15
July 14, 2020
I've been buying a lot of stuff lately. I am very much so the type of person who buy things in an attempt to fill a hole within me. It doesn't really work.  Usually it's just small things, but since I've come into some money, I've splurged a bit. I g
Jul 14
July 11, 2020
I really need to write something. It's been a minute.  The reason why I haven't posted lately is because I've been super busy and just got back from a lil vacation. I went to the beach with my parents, sister, her husband, and both of their sons. We
Jul 11
July 04, 2020, night
I didn't really want to write about this because it isn't about me as much as it is about my nephew.  My nephew, J, is a 5-year-old, autistic boy. He is full of life and full of love, but his autism causes little things to set him off.  Today was the
Jul 05
July 04, 2020
I posted an entry 4 hours ago and saying my heart hurts. Four hours later and my heart is a little bit warmer. After posting, I continued crying from reasons of my previous post and played a couple rounds of solitaire, trying to prepare myself for sl
Jul 04
July 03, 2020
My heart hurts. I feel so physically lonely. I crave a loving touch. My love language is physical touch. My love tank has been running on empty. I can get hugs from my parents and cuddles from my nephew, but it just isn't enough.  I need to be held.
Jul 04
July 02, 2020
I just feel kind of emotionally exhausted. I think attempting to give several people my attention is just draining me. I just want to find the one person that I can give my full attention.  I bought myself a new smartwatch that should be arriving to
Jul 03
June 30, 2020
Right person, wrong time.  I started talking to this guy, D McD, about 4 days ago. It's gone really well. But yesterday he dropped a bomb on me: he currently lives about 20 minutes away from me, but sometime in the next month he will be moving over 3
Jul 01
June 28, 2020
Yeah, I can and tend to be a sad sack who complains about being lonely and is always saying she's on the verge of giving up, but you know what?  I haven't given up. I've never given up. I've realized this once before, years ago, and that's how I came
Jun 29
June 27, 2020
My head hurts. I don't know the cause nor is it a big deal, but that's just the first thing that came to mind. In other news, neither CS nor CP has messaged me in a couple of days. CS is the one who said YESSS when I agreed to go on a date with him.
Jun 28