Xhopefulprincess's Dear Diary

We got the results for our covid tests just slightly more than 24 hours after taking them. We were both negative, so that's great. We are back at work again today. Sundays are honestly the worst days to work. Loads of people come in after church and

Everything was fine yesterday morning. My dad and I got up and got ready for work, no big deal.  For some reason, I felt off, like I was forgetting something. Maybe it had to do with the fact that I didn't feel the urge to poop yet even though poopin

I have been so completely overwhelmed with anxiety. My first day of work as a self-checkout person was awful. (September 17th) I have a lovely coworker and she helped me so much and was so nice to me. She was an absolute blessing.  Some higher-ups cr

Went to work for a few hours today to watch some training videos, set up direct deposit and such.  I was fine at work, but when I got home, anxiety hit me like a shit ton of bricks. I don't know why it happened right then. I felt like I was going to

The struggles are only just beginning. Good news, my dad and I got jobs. He got his old job back and I got a new one. I'm going to be working on the front end, meaning self checkout. It's better than being a regular cashier, for sure, but it is still

I feel anxious. High level anxiety. Tomorrow my dad and I are gonna go try to get our pre-covid jobs back.  The job I interviewed for recently said they would call me within 72 hours. They never did.  My favorite pizza place sent me a message on Augu

There are so many things I want to update about, but I have so little motivation.  I feel like I'm running out of time to do stuff that I want to do. Federal unemployment benefits have ended as of September 4th and now I'm in legitimate job search mo

I feel anxious and tired and hungry. Tired never goes away, but I could fix the hunger if I got out of bed. My sister, C, has been going to the doctor a lot lately. Her blood platelets are hella low. Normal is in the 100-thousands and last week she h

I've been having an absolutely awful period. It started very lightly on August 4th but it's been completely downhill ever since. Tons of cramping and passing a lot of blood clots. It's so physically draining. I feel so much better when I'm cuddling w

I miss Da so bad. It gets harder every time he leaves.  Yesterday he told me that if my grandma didn't have a problem with him staying the night, he would often come over to sleep with me. I wish we could do that.  It's so hard to not see him for a w

Depression has been hitting hard lately.  I bought my tattoo artist a Squirtle amiibo and gave it to her on the 27th after I paid the deposit for my next tattoo. I'm getting my favorite pokemon on August 24th. I tried to book sooner, but she's going

Big sigh. I'm feeling kinda meh. Kinda depressed. I can't pinpoint any particular reason though.  I told Da at 2am that I was going to sleep early tonight, and I did. But I woke up about 3 hours later and couldn't go back to sleep. I'm not sure if it

My fifth tattoo came out nicely. The lady who gave it to me was really nice, too. She's into anime and Pokemon. She has a Charmander and Squirtle tattoo on her left upper thigh. Also she's 3 years younger than me which came as a surprise. My wasp sti

I've been wanting to update for a while but I get distracted and lazy and shit happens.  Anyway I got stung 4 times today by wasps. Absolutely great time. Twice on my right thigh, about 2 inches apart, once on my palm right next to the skin that conn

I do and don't want to write this at the same time. My "good fortune" that I mentioned in my last entry ended very quickly. I was happy and content until I was forced awake on Monday afternoon (June 28th). My mom's left shoulder has been hurting her