Xhopefulprincess's Dear Diary

April 06, 2022
Yesterday I applied for readmission to my university. I dropped out after the Fall 2019 term (4.5 years of enrollment) with only 4 credit hours between me and graduating. I was drowning in stress (PTSD) and working and ended up failing the classes I
Apr 07
March 07, 2022
One of my coworkers died yesterday. It was very sudden and unexpected. My team lead told me about it right after she came in the door and I had already been clocked in for about 8 or 9 minutes.  I was shocked. Another coworker asked how she had died
Mar 08
December 31, 2021
Woo. I'm 25 now.  Da got me sick on my birthday last Saturday. He didn't have anything too bad and neither did I but I still lost my voice. I worked the two days after my birthday and then after work on Monday, Da and I had a little hotel vacation. I
Jan 02
December 21, 2021
So it turns out I'm only 5/10 of a match for my sister (C), which is a relief for me, but the real relief is that they told her there are thousands of 10/10 matches in the registry. I'm glad that I was able to avoid the entire situation of being forc
Dec 22
December 16, 2021
Where do I even start with the mess my life has been since my last entry?  I think I've been processing life at lease somewhat well so I haven't felt an overwhelming desire to make an entry, but I've also just been lazy. Now that I feel like writing
Dec 17
October 31, 2021
Today was a rough day.  Work was hella busy. I barely had time to breathe. I'm supposed to get two paid 15 minute breaks every day, but I only got one. I understood that we were busy, but you can bet your ass that the ass-kissers and bosses got all o
Nov 01
October 30, 2021
I've been so very tired lately. It's like I'm back in high school where I'd procrastinate sleep, go to sleep late, and stay tired at school, except now it's work. I don't know why I'm like this. And if I do go to sleep at a decent time, I'll wake up
Oct 30
October 07, 2021
I've been busy and some stuff has happened.  Tuesday, September 28th was a fun day. Da and I went to a mall, specifically for Build-A-Bear, because I had never been and he wanted to make an Umbreon. We bought lots of stuff and I had some pretzel bite
Oct 07
September 26, 2021
We got the results for our covid tests just slightly more than 24 hours after taking them. We were both negative, so that's great. We are back at work again today. Sundays are honestly the worst days to work. Loads of people come in after church and
Sep 26
September 24, 2021
Everything was fine yesterday morning. My dad and I got up and got ready for work, no big deal.  For some reason, I felt off, like I was forgetting something. Maybe it had to do with the fact that I didn't feel the urge to poop yet even though poopin
Sep 24
September 19, 2021
I have been so completely overwhelmed with anxiety. My first day of work as a self-checkout person was awful. (September 17th) I have a lovely coworker and she helped me so much and was so nice to me. She was an absolute blessing.  Some higher-ups cr
Sep 19
September 16, 2021
Went to work for a few hours today to watch some training videos, set up direct deposit and such.  I was fine at work, but when I got home, anxiety hit me like a shit ton of bricks. I don't know why it happened right then. I felt like I was going to
Sep 17
September 13, 2021
The struggles are only just beginning. Good news, my dad and I got jobs. He got his old job back and I got a new one. I'm going to be working on the front end, meaning self checkout. It's better than being a regular cashier, for sure, but it is still
Sep 14
September 12, 2021
I feel anxious. High level anxiety. Tomorrow my dad and I are gonna go try to get our pre-covid jobs back.  The job I interviewed for recently said they would call me within 72 hours. They never did.  My favorite pizza place sent me a message on Augu
Sep 13
September 08, 2021
There are so many things I want to update about, but I have so little motivation.  I feel like I'm running out of time to do stuff that I want to do. Federal unemployment benefits have ended as of September 4th and now I'm in legitimate job search mo
Sep 09