Yarrow thoughts's Dear Diary

Index
January 28, 2021
i am having hallucinations every fucking day and nobody is helping
Jan 28
first entry of 2021
Dear Diary, I don't feel like a single person, more so as 4 people - each with their own personality and interests, different voices, memories and preference in people. I tried talking to the GP about it but he didn't listen and went on about bi
Jan 03
September 20, 2020
Dear Diary, it only got better temporarily, ive come down from feeling happy again. it took a month. i tried my best to avoid feeling like this again.
Sep 20
August 20, 2020
Dear Diary, I almost drowned myself 2 days ago, I had the letters and note of explanation ready, playing my favourite songs on repeat telling myself I'd do it at the end of the playlist. I'd told (going to call him X for privacy) X about want
Aug 20
June 16, 2020
Dear Diary, i'm done with this and everyone. i want to self harm, but can't bring myself to hold the knife.
Jun 15
POLICE ARE SHOOTING INCORRECTLY
I'm so upset about the media not showing the police brutality at peaceful protests (may I remind: 1312), they're using rubber bullets incorrectly:  these bullets are pieces of steel wrapped with a thick layer of rubber around them. They sound harmle
Jun 01
Protest for George Floyd
George Floyd was an innocent black man. Derek Chauvin, a 19-year veteran of the Minneapolis police department, kneeling on 46-year-old Floyd’s neck for nine minutes as he pleaded for his life, saying that he couldn't breathe. Police files show that p
May 28
thank you.
Dear Diary, To the guy who said to forgive and forget: sorry about sounding annoyed at you. After quarantine, I'm going to his for 1 day to collect my stuff then that's it. I won't see him again. He'll probably take us to court for 'going ag
May 04
sick of you defending that cunt
In my last entry I spoke about my d*d, and how he's been sexual towards me since I was little; and one guy said to just forgive and forget. What the fuck are you on, I cannot bring myself to forgive such a low and shitty person??  I got into an argu
May 04
my d*d
Dear Diary, my life has been fucked ever since court decided to let my dad have shared custody over me. Since he started threatening to hit me, be sexual towards me when drunk, to hit me and hurt me emotionally. The court let a man that keyed my
Mar 26
I hate it.
Dear Diary, I seriously need to tell my mum or someone how I truly feel. I need to go on medication for the disorders I believe I have. I'd go to a therapist, but that wouldn't be possible at the moment due to the pandemic. Somebody on here
Mar 23
pandemic
Dear Diary, covid-19 is a new corona virus that originated in Wuhan during 2019, when a man reported symptoms. This then spread world wide, having a negative effect on majority of lives, but a positive effect on nature. Some positives that
Mar 19
outbursts
I don't think I'll last for much longer, battle in my mind. Can't reach out to anyone for help without feeling guilty or embarrassed.  I want to kill and injure people so badly,  But I don't have any documents to prove my mental disorders, so
Mar 14
March 14, 2020
Dear Diary, It's so different here, everything white, smart, blue. My room becoming storage for their children, I feel excluded. There's a birthday party being held here today, that's why I decided to come over and stay the night. Although ther
Mar 14