Sar Bear's Dear Diary

Index
October 08, 2019 Then the fuckening happened
I was walking home from the bus terminal... Had both headphones in... Singing at the top of my lungs to everyone and no one... And realized halfway home i had been making a complete fool of myself dancing and jumping off the end of the curbs to cross
Oct 09
October 07, 2019
My cousins post... Stay humble  My cousin kyle posted this and i.needed it... I know one of you needs it as well It’s sad that literally everybody has been hurt in some way to the point everyone has walls up so high Because they don’t wanna get hurt.
Oct 07
October 06, 2019
I have more faith in myself now then i did before... Think what you want... Even though im upset and ive locked up and im numbing... I know that this time im going to come out shinning... As bright as the sun... I might be alone for a while... And i
Oct 07
October 06, 2019
Ive become so numb I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface I don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes Caught in the undertow, just caught in the underto
Oct 06
October 06, 2019
Ive seen better days...But im getting there... Just started a new job... Its construction.. Building cabinets in a new middle school being built... Its keep my mind busy... And by the time i get home... Out.. Like a light... Iove it... And its hard
Oct 06
October 03, 2019
Whether its my fault or not Im just going to have to remind myself everyday... Why would i want to be with someone.. That no matter how bad i hurt them or disrespected them... If theu saybthey are here to help me.. To help with my soberity... I
Oct 04
October 03, 2019
Give up???Remeber your biggest victory is that you didnt give up... Everything youve been thru... And as many times as you may have tried... Or thought about t... You didnt give up... That is your biggest win
Oct 03
October 03, 2019
BeautifulThere she goes, she's so beautiful, she's so beautiful, yeah But she's so broke; she's so incredible, wonder if she'll ever know, yeah, whoa She lays in her bedroom, and she cries, yeah, she cries, whoa oh And she feels depressed as tears fa
Oct 03
October 03, 2019
Linkin park... Nobodu save me I'm dancing with my demons I'm hanging off the edge Storm clouds gather beneath me Waves break above my head At first hallucination I wanna fall wide awake now You tell me it's alright Tell me I'm forgiven Tonight But no
Oct 03
October 02, 2019
I miss being numb...When i used it was because i didn't want to feel... I didnt want to remeber my past.. I didnt want to think about the things that happened to me as a child... I didint want to relive hearing and watching my mom get beat by my sist
Oct 03
October 01, 2019
Don't get me wrong... I made a milestone... But i feel i still have major moments... I still have giant mountains i feel i still need to climb to make it to half were I need to be... And I know i wont get it right just off the bat... But even knowing
Oct 01
October 01, 2019
The most beautiful an rewarding things are not going to come by easy... Its going to completly hate every moment of fustration... Your going to want to find a way to make it even just the slightest bit easier... Your going to get angry... And just wh
Oct 01
September 30, 2019
Bent not broken I have to remind myself... Im not broken... Im Bent... Its such a blessing to feel like you can finally just talk... Not argue... Not worry if he feels you should jus keep quit after everything... That he just wanted you to stand up
Oct 01
September 30, 2019
Use anger and frustration for the positive. There are times when we may become morally outraged about something that we feel is unfair or unjust. We take action to fight for what is right -- and on the face of it, that’s a good thing. But it doesn’
Sep 30
September 30, 2019
It seems so easy... But the process is much more difficult then you think... Trying unfuck32 years of mind fuck from yourself... Your exes... Your family... Then add your mistakes... Alienating yourself from everyone... Trying to convince myself that
Sep 30