October 22, 2019
Self worth
Sometimes the lessons i truly honestly learn from are the ones that im affected the hardest over... Ill admit im stubborn... I give to much of myself... But .. Today i count as a true victory... I established some boundries with people that i have needed to establish on my own for months... I allowed myself to enjoy myself an didnt feel guilty about it.. I made clear an stuck to my word on another decision... I didnt put myself in anyones bullshit drama... I put on my makeup today and felt more like me... I felt content with me.. With who i am today... And didnt beat myself up for anything... I felt comfortable just being by myself... Sat on my couch an leaned my head back on the back for a while an just closed my eyes an felt relaxed with myself.. Like i found my zen today... And for the first time in a long time... I felt peaceful.. My mind was quiet... She didnt argue back with me... And that.. Was my biggest victory today... And i know tomorrow may be different... But im finding myself... Coming to terms with things and im finding im okay with it... Im okay with being alone... Content... Im finding its not really a fight its just learning to keep going an not giving up... I keep saying im faking it until i make it.. But really... I just had to dig deep an realize o wasnt faking it ive been making it all along and thats why im still here... I just need to make some adjusments so I produce results... Not dead ends... And thats life... It happens...
Everyday is going to be different... But im one step closer to me.. The real me.... And i know im gonna pull thru an im going to make it.. And it will be because of me.. Know one else..
I am worth it..
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