Damned's Dear Diary

Dear No One, At lunch today, something small happened—but it kind of lingered. We were just talking, laughing even, and then one of my lunch buddies mentioned that a coworker—someone I’m not super close to, but still, someone I know—was getting

Dear No one, It’s been—how many days now? Weeks? I no longer count them out loud, but my body does. In the quiet hours, I still feel the missing. Not loudly. Just lightly enough to ache. I miss him. Not in the wild, cinematic sense. But in

What I Cannot Say, I Return in Silence He brings me small kindnesses—like offerings to a shrine. A cup of coffee the way I like it. A plushies because it reminded him of me. He does not know that each gift, however gentle, presses like a thumb ag

Dear no one, Hello! It's been a while. I have uninstalled this app and kinda forget about this until now.A lot has happened after almost a year. I graduated last September, I am already working, and just recently regularized.I feel like the same

Dear No one, Yesterday I had the courage to break up with him once and for all. I set up a trap and he stupidly fell for it. I am so disgusted with him, how willingly he is to cheat, and the realization that maybe he already did. I hate him. I don'

Dear No one, I've tried communicating my fears to him, again. Although like always, he reassures me, yet why doesn't it ever feel enough?  Yes, his words calm me. It somehow subsided the storm inside me, but it never last long. Why can't I really t

Dear No one, I don't think I ever believe in 'love'. Maybe it do happens to some people but I doubt it will be the same for me. I am currently in a relationship but I feel estrange from love more than ever. It's like I am only playing a part, a rol

I remember the story of your terrarium, one of your personal project It was years forgotten, hidden in your backyard along with your mother's plentiful garden I remember the time you rediscovered it, There was a shortage in power and you had noth

Dear No one, As I reflect my life throughout this year, all I could think of is that I am still a shit person, or maybe worse. For sure I have done so many bad decisions, some of them I regret but mostly I don't care anymore. I don't know what I'm

I hate my body. I hate my face.I couldn't even look in the mirror. I am afraid to see a camera or to take photos of myself. Most of all, I envy other people. I hate that I hate them. I hate their beauty. I hate the body that they have.  I hate their

Dear No one, We aren't talking like we used to before. Most of the nights end up cold and misunderstood. Now I can't tell stories to him, about how my day went. He seems uninterested in my words now. Maybe his love is slowly drifting away. He's onl

Dear No one, I lost it. I already gave it to him. I have risk my soul, and if ever it wouldn't work well at the end, i will surely die. I know I should cry, or be condemned. I should be filled with guilt. But all is empty. I can't feel anything. My

8:34 pmIn the middle of the night, he messaged me. Hiiii Hellooo, how are you? I'm good Why? Sorry Hahaha, It's okay No, I am saying goodbye Ohhhh, tell me why first It's for the world peace Are you serious? Yes Awww, but it's on you awwwwwts, that'

Dear No one, I am crying tonight because my boyfriend thinks I'm a trash and too immature. I was never enough for him. He said he just say things because he's angry but it's still unacceptable and degrading. It's more painful to hear that you are n

Dear No one, Can I disappear for a moment? I want to scream in the outer space. I want to badly curse this life. I have never felt free eversince I was born. I don't think I can endure long. I wish I could explode right now. I wish there's a p