Dear No one,
I am crying tonight because my boyfriend thinks I'm a trash and too immature. I was never enough for him. He said he just say things because he's angry but it's still unacceptable and degrading. It's more painful to hear that you are nothing from others especially when you always think the same thing. It's like a confirmation, and it sucks. He never really heard me, never listen to me. He never tried to understand my point.... While I always try to understand where he's coming from. He's mad because I'm unrelenting, he doesn't get why I'm too closed, that I am unwilling to be controlled.
We may love each other but it's not enough. I'm so tired fighting, for my defense, for lowering myself so we could be fine again... I don't know anymore. I hate myself even more :(((