Shesnotreal's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, today has been rough. My husbands schedule changed because of the increase covid cases in OTHER states. Anyways, now when he's home, DS and I are doing school, and when he comes home, it's super late. Everything is clashing. He feels the

Dear Diary, still waiting on the refinance. Man it takes forever to push paperwork. Funny how I can get everything to them within 24 hours but it takes them 4 weeks to push papers. Oh well I guess. DS got yellow belt in Karate, I am so proud of h

Dear Diary, I don't have an update on life today. Maybe later. But I did want to share my new instagram. I like to take pictures, definately no professional. If anyone was interested.

Dear Diary, the appraisal went through beautifully. Now just waiting on the underwriters. This can take weeks. They except the beginning of October hopefully. Then basically my husbands truck will be paid off and things will be good again. No new hou

Dear Diary, ok, today is going better. I am really trying to not get my hopes up because I don't want to be disappointed again. But we started the refinance on our home and tapping into the equity. Doing this will pay off my husbands new truck he jus

Dear Diary, What a dissappointing week. Not able to transfer because my husband's job is being stupid. So we thought about just moving a few miles away into a better house. But everything in our price range locally is too small. So once again, an

Dear Diary, so last night all our plans got crushed. I am heartbroken and angry. We had this amazing plan on moving, we were just waiting for the job transfer. It was going to make our lives so much better and happier, but now it seems as though that

Dear Diary, well I might be starting my own adventure! Some of the members on a facebook group I am on said they are interested in me doing some tutorial videos on baking bread. Tips and how too. I am SO nervious! I have no idea where to start or

Dear Diary, still alright, though I seem to be stuck in my own head. Overly worried about things. At least we past the peak of summer and things are starting to SLOWLY cool off. Meaning I can finally start using my oven again and start doing the thin

Dear Diary, things are going well over here. My son is loving karate so that is fantastic! He also finally lost that tooth! I swear I never seen a tooth hang on by a thread for that long! I was like 2 days away from calling the dentist! I am also doi

Dear Diary, still waiting on business to pick up so that my husband can transfer with his job and we can move. Just a waiting game, and while we wait I am fixing up the house enough to be able to sell it. My son has started Karate and is really l

Dear Diary, so we are getting things figured out. After homeschool with my son today I will be going to the store to get bubble wrap and I am going to start packing the decor of the house. Get this place clean and bare so that we can access exactly w

Dear Diary, alright I am back. Like I said before, I am terrible at upkeeping a journal. Anyways, homeschooling is amazing. Since we started back in January my son has advanced to the next grade and is learning so much! Behavior is much better as wel

Dear Diary, I have no idea why I decided to keep a diary again, I am terrible at keeping up with them, but here we go I guess. We have made a lot of changes in our lives which includes me becoming a stay at home mother again, homeschooling our

Dear Diary, it’s been a while since i last wrote here - i guess what brings me back here is the feeling of loneliness that’s ripping at my soul. i don’t have anyone to share this feeling with. i want to connect with someone again it’s been too long.

Dear Diary, another thing that i read and stuck with me was : “ guilt is a useless emotion but a powerful tool”

Dear Diary, this year i’ll be actually alone on my birthday. not only lonely as usual but also alone  and that’s okay i just wanna write this down here and see if my assumptions are correct

Dear Diary, im hot and im pretty  everyone can agree

Dear Diary,  when i die i want everyone close to me to look back on the memories they’ve made with me and smile. i don’t want them to be sad that i’m gone, i want them to gather around somewhere and talk about the love they’d feel the fun they’d hav

Dear Diary, for once i just wanna be in the back seat not the drivers seat

Dear Diary, my friends say it’s comforting to be around me, that i’m kind and loving and always there…  i know that but, is anyone ever there for me? the way i need it?  i always feel alone. not lonely. just alone. i’ve always felt like i’m carryin

Dear Diary, i wanna share a quote with you- i read this just now and i really liked it: “You are not entitled to your opinion. You are entitled to your informed opinion. No one is entitled to be ignorant“

Dear Diary, my sister traveled back to the country she lives in and after having her here with me for a month and getting used to having het around 24/7 again… the night feels too quiet but it’s okay. i really enjoyed spending time with her and it’s

Dear Diary, i saw a tiktok the other day where the girl said she read something that said “how empty of me to be so full of you” and that shit stung me and stayed with me for weeks after.

Dear Diary, i remember my mom buying me an iced coffee and donut at the airport two years ago when i was really sad about whatever silly thing it was at the time.. now here i am buying her favorite pie for her as i help her prepare to travel to her h

Dear Diary, i feel like i’m always missing something theres this huge empty space inside of me somewhere i’ve been finding it super hard to fall asleep easily because of it. i’m also feeling detached again and all of these feelings are starting to tu

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Dear Diary, today i realized that i now also have a person that falls under the “ if i could go back in time and unmeet you i would in a glance”. i just think it’s so fucked up what she did to me. i deserved better and at this point i will never ever

Dear Diary, today i saw my friends and it was really nice. my country has been undergoing a 7pm curfew because of the covid19 pandemic but everything is open again at night now and it’s been really nice i miss late night drives where the windows are