Carol's Dear Diary

Dear jk,             You would never know the feeling of being struck from all the sides. It's like floating on a piece of wood in the ocean during a storm. I don't know how to swim no one ever taught me how to. So now that I am stranded in the ocea

Dear jk,             What is wrong with me?

Dear JK,             It's supposedly my big day tomorrow. Well it kinda is but my guilty conscience won't allow me to be excited or Happy. I wish I have fun tomorrow I really wanna have fun.  I wanna be happy for sometime and forget about all the w

Dear JK,                 It's one of those nights where I can't sleep. I don't know why though I mean sure there are so much on my mind lately but sleeping at night has never been a problem for me. It's just that some nights are harder than others.

Dear JK,                 I am scared, I am so fucking scared and I am not doing well. I just want to tell everyone that I am not perfect like they think I am. And I want a break, a long one because I don't know what to do anymore I am so scar

Dear JK,           End of another year. And I survived this one too like I always do. As the time goes by I am starting to feel numb I am starting to care less about things and yet deep down all of them leave a scar. This year was also horrible espec

Dear JK,                 I feel so many things at once that when I try to write them down I start to have no words to describe  them so most of the time I don't.  Like right now I have so much to say and yet I can't say a word. Funny,right? I wish

Dearest JK,              Happy belated birthday. I remember you once said to me that you don't think of your birthday as a special day you just see at as day when you were born at that time I thought how dare you take something  for so granted. You a

Dear JK,                I often wonder what hell is, is it the place I am living in or someplace worse. Is it the place I am dreaming of or the place I am destined to be at. Whatever it is I hope it's not where I am right now. I think often that thi

Dear JK,         I met my friend after almost a year and a half today. They've changed so much. They are still good people it's just when I met them today I found it hard to confide in them. It felt so different. I should be happier, lighter after m

Dear JK,                Sylvia plath once said that life is like a fig tree. Each fig is a life that could be lived, each fig is different possibility and how she just sits by the tree and watches these figs rot because she couldn't decide which one

Dear JK,            There are times like this when I wonder if this is how I will live for the rest of my life, if this is my fate. Living like a dead.  I just want someone to understand me. Is it too much to ask jk? I am sick of being programmed

My dearest Jk,                    So much has happened in the past couple of months, I got the taste of failure for the  first time and it felt like someone has peeled off my skin and was drilling in my bones. It was heart wrenching. But you never h

Dear JK,              I wish being positive wasn't so hard. I am starting to believe that manifestation do works though I have never really tried it myself but I am planning to. But the thing is that you have to be in a very positive mindset to actu

Dear JK, I saw your picture today, not sure if it's old or new but I can tell that it is you. Even though your face was covered I could recognise you, from your eyes. We've got the same eyes you know, big and round just how you like it. I don't know