Carol's Dear Diary

Index
13th September 2024
Dear JK,                 I feel so many things at once that when I try to write them down I start to have no words to describe  them so most of the time I don't.  Like right now I have so much to say and yet I can't say a word. Funny,right? I wish
Sep 13
9th September 2024
Dearest JK,              Happy belated birthday. I remember you once said to me that you don't think of your birthday as a special day you just see at as day when you were born at that time I thought how dare you take something  for so granted. You a
Sep 09
25th August 2024
Dear JK,                I often wonder what hell is, is it the place I am living in or someplace worse. Is it the place I am dreaming of or the place I am destined to be at. Whatever it is I hope it's not where I am right now. I think often that thi
Aug 25
August 09, 2024
Dear JK,         I met my friend after almost a year and a half today. They've changed so much. They are still good people it's just when I met them today I found it hard to confide in them. It felt so different. I should be happier, lighter after m
Aug 09
17th July 2024
Dear JK,                Sylvia plath once said that life is like a fig tree. Each fig is a life that could be lived, each fig is different possibility and how she just sits by the tree and watches these figs rot because she couldn't decide which one
Jul 17
25th June 2024
Dear JK,            There are times like this when I wonder if this is how I will live for the rest of my life, if this is my fate. Living like a dead.  I just want someone to understand me. Is it too much to ask jk? I am sick of being programmed
Jun 25
6th June 2024
My dearest Jk,                    So much has happened in the past couple of months, I got the taste of failure for the  first time and it felt like someone has peeled off my skin and was drilling in my bones. It was heart wrenching. But you never h
Jun 06
31st January 2024
Dear JK,              I wish being positive wasn't so hard. I am starting to believe that manifestation do works though I have never really tried it myself but I am planning to. But the thing is that you have to be in a very positive mindset to actu
Jan 31
6th January 2024
Dear JK, I saw your picture today, not sure if it's old or new but I can tell that it is you. Even though your face was covered I could recognise you, from your eyes. We've got the same eyes you know, big and round just how you like it. I don't know
Jan 06
31st December 2023
Dearest JK 2023 was your year but it certainly wasn't mine it was heart wrenching for me. Probably the worst year of my life. It was like a bumpy ride, which was so bumpy that it left me with wounds, wounds so deep that's still bleeding. One of the
Dec 31
25th December 2023
Dear JK, Merry Christmas Jk. It'd be your first Christmas without your family and friends. Well I go through that every year. You know in which way I am talking about. I didn't do anything today. And it felt good doing nothing. But still at the bac
Dec 25
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Dear Jk, Everything hurts. How to stop it? Help me Jk. –YJ
Dec 20
20th December 2023
Dear JK, You have changed so much Or maybe you haven't, maybe I was the one who never saw the real you but whatever it is, your new self makes me hate you even more than I already did. Do you hate me too? –YJ
Dec 20
17th December 2023
Dear JK, It's been 20 years, 20 years since my brother died. I forgot his death anniversary which was today. I saw my mom's messages and that's when I realised that today is his death anniversary. I don't miss him bcoz I never saw him but I still wo
Dec 17
15th December 2023
Dear JK, I feel like a burden, I know my parents don't see me as one nor does my friends. No one sees me as a burden but I see myself as one. I know it's weird but I can't explain it. There are times when I feel like I am the problem or things would
Dec 15