S. 's Dear Diary

Sick an tired... I'm tired... Not just exhausted from working.. I'm exhausted from trying to maintain the hapoy facade.. For once I km tired of fighting... In tired of fighting .. In every way shaoe an form I am tired of fighting...  Most importantly

Because of the situation going on an were we both were at that moment in life..  We're soul friends... If that makes since...  Our siiks recognized kKns another.. Not as soul mates.. But as a reincarnated soul friend..

As my shit hits the fan... So if I had a soap opera that would be the name of it...  Hust n the last few weeks alone major changes have been made whether willingoy or unwilling... Ive fallen so far down another rabnit hole.  I've landed I. Another a

So im the black sheep in a black sheep family... When something bad happens the way i find out is thru a Facebook post or comment on a friend or family menbers page...  Imnthe family member that doesnt even get so much of a trxt wishing a merry chris

The simple things in life💜💜... So ive been getting ridiculously thirsty men hitting me up on fb... Jus hit ignore an move on but everyonce n a while I got a good funny message that makes me feel like my soul is shinning thru... Heres 2 Sep messages

He Didnt Have To Be All I knew was i wanted to go an walk the lake... So I changed out of my out of my PJs an into some jeans an hoodie an jacket.. Put my batman beanie back on... Grabbed my house keys and a knife..  An i walked out to walk the lake.

Dear Diary, Message to me from a friend Sometimes I like to tell things in private because people get the wrong idea, mad, or jealous. It's not to say I would not be interested in you, because I am, but more in turn of seeing what you

Living dead girl..... Its hard... Trying to keep the smiles and the fake mask up... It hurts... I struggle... I sit alone in my kitcheb most of the time an just listen to music an talk on the phone... Keeping up my usual return even tryin to full my

Sorry not sorry......... So i had to make a post in my social media because no matter how honest i am about how much im not ready for a relationship someone was trying to push himself into a relationship with me... So just before  him i sent him as

Behind blue eyes... She was walking proof that you can have your soul in half and still navigate thru life beautifully... I read that quote today and it gave me hope...  Im tired... Exhausted.. Talking to my roommate last night that there are things

We built us for more Was talking to an ol close friend this am.... Every once jn a while i cone up with something good...  Love ur chrisss..  We may not have been built for what weve been thru but we sure as hell built ourselfs to withstand the after

About the collage picture.. Bottom right was taken sept 28.. 2 weeks before his arrest... The top right was taken oct 18th.. One day after his arrest.. And the left picture of my upside down is month after I took. Back control of my life.. An out it

Today.. Im proud of me... So yesterday i spent some time an reread some of my past entries... I cried a little... I wrote down a couple upliftong posts to hang kn my wall n my apt so that i can look at them when i need those words of inspiration...

Things are gettong better... I started a new job working nights an uve been working on readjusting... I feel like ive hit the roommate lottery... And thd injunction on justin is good for a year... But it seems like crowds are causing me to break soo

Self worth Sometimes the lessons i truly honestly learn from are the ones that im affected the hardest over... Ill admit im stubborn... I give to much of myself... But .. Today i count as a true victory... I established some boundries with people th

Dear Diary, She stopped talking to me on Saturday. As a matter of fact she ghosted me. I feel lost. I was so lonely before she came into my life, everyone I’ve ever wanted to stay has left, and now so has she. Things have been so dark for me lately

Dear Diary, I’m so in love with her. Completely and utterly. How can that even be? I don’t even really know her. I want her. I’m constantly thinking about her. The way her fingers run through her hair. The way she laughs in my ear. How she says my

Dear Diary, Today I feel utterly lonely. And scared. I’m gonna have to move out my home sometimes next year and idk where to go. I have no where to go. I can’t afford rent on my salary and I’m scared. I’ve never had to be on my own before. Fend for

Dear Diary, It’s been a while. New development, I like a girl 🫢. Anyway, went to a Caribbean island on vacation and met this girl. I was immediately drawn to her and idk why. That same day we exchanged socials and she invite my friend and I out th

Dear Diary, All I want is a friend to hang with. Preferably a woman. My best friend migrated and I’d finally found such an amazing group of women, but they betrayed me, along with my bf. So not only am I single, but I’ve also lost my friends. I jus

Dear Diary, Men are just so fucking disappointing. Like even when they’re amazing, they’re disappointing. My bf is this amazing guy like truly amazing but there are times when I’m reminded of the fact that he’s 4 years younger than me. And who know

Dear Diary, I’m fed up of everyone in my house.  That’s all.

Dear Diary,                      Last night with Y was amazing. We ended up going my friend’s bday party and even though it took me hours to get dressed cuz the zipper in my dress was stuck and we were only out for like two hours, I still had an ama

Dear Diary,                      Ok so I’m gonna track how things go between Y and myself. As of today, we’re at a place where we call each other baby and baby, we spend nights by each other. We’ve gone on the most magical dinner date Saturday gone

Dear Diary,                           So I started seeing one of my friends that I’ve known since I was 17. Things seem to be progressing well, but don’t want to get my hopes up. We’ve always had a flirtationship going on since forever, almost had s

Dear Diary, Spending Christmas alone…fun.

Dear Diary, The feeling is back again. This feeling of loneliness. The feeling of fear. Fear of never finding him again. I miss him…whoever he is. So much. I miss his hugs and his cuddles. I miss his scent and the way he’d get dressed in the mornin

Dear Diary, at this point I must be bipolar or something. Yesterday I was over the moon and today I just feel so depressed. I hate not knowing where I stand with Stef. Idk if he just wants to hook up or if he’s seriously interested in me. It’s frustr

Dear Diary,                      Last night Stef came over and just wow, I didn’t realize how much I like him….and the sex. I just love spending time with him. We cuddled and watched a movie, well most of the movie lol but it was amazing. Tbh I don

Dear Diary, I want love. I miss giving love. I miss being loved. I miss the intensity of it all. The sex is meaningless after a while. A couple days ago I was on top on the world…and on top of this man’s dick lol, but it’s not enough. Why do I k