Ei's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, Love should be freeing right? At least that's how I view it. It is something that whwn you feel it, it's like a breathe of fresh air. Like you can fully breathe in it and feel comfort. It should not feel controlled. It should not fee

I do not like this. It feels suffocating. It feels wrong. It's like I can't do anything right for him. Explaining equates to changing the mind or changing details or reasons. I can't talk to my friends. I can't talk to my best friend without feeling

Dear Diary, He just said he loves me. Through a chat. But yeah it just happened. After a really long and serious conversation. It wasn't a fight but it was a serious conversation.  At 1:32 and 1:33am with my name. How do I feel? I was happy

Dear Diary, I am not sure how I feel about this person. Things happened so quickly and now I am confused if I should be happy or be wary. I have a lot to think about. Maybe I should keep my distance and think about this first. I feel like I forg

Dear Diary, It's highly possible that he is not interested and was only being polite. I guess I'll just not DM him anymore. I feel like I'm intruding. I'll just be in my own bubble again. I hate that I feel like I want something more out of this. I

Dear Diary, I could not sleep. I have a lot on my mind. Mostly terrible thoughts but I would like one good thing to be on my mind before I sleep. I played a game with someone, he's a friend of a friend. I just heard his voice but it was refreshi

The shadow of death seems to be lingering around me lately. It's filling me up with emotions, wearing me down bit by bit, slowly drowning me in the dark embrace of grief and sorrow. I try to fight. But why does it feel like I'm sinking deeper with ev

Dear Diary,I haven't wrote in here for a while because I simply didn't have the time or energy to. Life has been incredibly stressful and anxiety inducing. First, my boyfriend and I broke up because he was getting abusive. It still breaks my heart be

Dear Diary, After what happened the other night, I'm still afraid that it could possibly happen again. I talked to my friend about what happened, and she was pissed! She says that I should leave him immediately, but I don't think its right because

Dear Diary, When he came home last night he was drunk out of his mind. When he drinks, he isn't himself. He took out one of his knives, and told me that if I leave him he would cut me, and that he wasn't kidding. He held the knife to my cheek, and

Dear Diary, Ishmael surprised me today! I'm glad he came here to see me. He'll be here for a couple of weeks, but then he gave me some really sad news. He's going to be moving all the way overseas. I don't know if I can deal with this. I don't know

I miss when everyday after school, we would hold hands all the way back home, and talk about how much we hated school. It was sad, but we were alone together. I miss how we used to take the long way to your house, and pretend that we were getting mar

Dear Diary, Lately, I've been thinking about my boyfriend a lot. He moved away a while back, and we haven't been able to see each other in person for over a year now. I know that we still have video chatting, and texting, but it's not the same as b