Mermore's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, it's been a while. Met a girl a couple weeks ago, got her number and chatted a lot, even went out with her last week. But now she's just been completely ignoring me for the past few days. Time to accept that I'll never be god enough for a

Still no internet at work, makes doing most stuff a pain and it all takes a lot more time to do. I also seem to be running out of patience a lot more than I usually do, everyone just seems to be getting on my nerves. I suppose it doesn't help that ev

What a day its been. No Internet at work has made life difficult. Been super busy and I'm tired as hell. Almost home time thankfully, hopefully I don't have to deal with being bitched at for an hour again when I get home. I just want to relax.

Dear Diary, it's been a couple days since I last posted. I've finished season 1 of dark now, was really good. Yesterday when I got home my mom decided to spend about an hour complaining about the most insignificant stupid thing. I don't understand wh

Dear Diary,I started watching Dark on Netflix a couple days ago, just about to finish season 1. Really enjoying it, however it hasn't made me any less depressed. I always feel so alone, yes I have friends, but they're so far away from me, acros

I ate a whole thing of Ben and Jerry's ice cream today.   Its not cause I'm upset or anything, I think I was just bored and didn't know what to fill my time up with outside of eating.  It's a little bit annoying because I've developed my active l

It was another good day. I dressed up in my best and went out to some new places. It's crazy to think about how many things are so close together.  That mall is by the book store we go to which is by the game store we go to and just dang.  So much ha

I was pretty much kept busy from the moment I woke up.  In the past I was always afraid of committing my time to a billion things.  I didn't want it in the way of other things that could have come up that day.  Now that I've started living a busy lif

Today I made some great improvements.  I was finally able to allow myself to communicate more with my co-workers than my usual short responses.  I had a conversation with someone.  It was easy knowing that he had mentioned building a gaming PC so tal

I faced some things head on today and I didn't break down. My mom knows about the break up and I was so terrified of breaking down in front of her today when she came to pick my little sister up from my house. It did not happen. I am proud that I was

Today was marginally better than yesterday.  I kept myself busy at work and even spent the day planning out an art piece.  It wasn't until after lunch hit that the sad thoughts began to move in.  It was all thoughts of the future and a bunch of what

Dear Diary, This is the second day in a row that I've spent my workday in tears.  The break-up was months ago, but every day is a gamble with how I'll feel.  I guess hearing yesterday that there is a zero percent chance that we will get back tog