July 23, 2020

I faced some things head on today and I didn't break down. My mom knows about the break up and I was so terrified of breaking down in front of her today when she came to pick my little sister up from my house. It did not happen. I am proud that I was able to stay strong in that regard. My work day was similar to yesterday too where I started getting sad when I thought about the future and the kind of things I might miss out on. I fought it. I don't need to think about the future right now. I need to think about the present and what I need to do to heal. I've been distracting myself with streaming video games and talking with other people. I am opening myself up a lot more at work. I might have a friend for once. I just hope this one doesn't go and quit the second I start getting close. Is it weird that I've never had a friend at my job? I've been in the same place for 9 years.