Mermore's Dear Diary

I ate a whole thing of Ben and Jerry's ice cream today.   Its not cause I'm upset or anything, I think I was just bored and didn't know what to fill my time up with outside of eating.  It's a little bit annoying because I've developed my active l

It was another good day. I dressed up in my best and went out to some new places. It's crazy to think about how many things are so close together.  That mall is by the book store we go to which is by the game store we go to and just dang.  So much ha

I was pretty much kept busy from the moment I woke up.  In the past I was always afraid of committing my time to a billion things.  I didn't want it in the way of other things that could have come up that day.  Now that I've started living a busy lif

Today I made some great improvements.  I was finally able to allow myself to communicate more with my co-workers than my usual short responses.  I had a conversation with someone.  It was easy knowing that he had mentioned building a gaming PC so tal

I faced some things head on today and I didn't break down. My mom knows about the break up and I was so terrified of breaking down in front of her today when she came to pick my little sister up from my house. It did not happen. I am proud that I was

Today was marginally better than yesterday.  I kept myself busy at work and even spent the day planning out an art piece.  It wasn't until after lunch hit that the sad thoughts began to move in.  It was all thoughts of the future and a bunch of what

Dear Diary, This is the second day in a row that I've spent my workday in tears.  The break-up was months ago, but every day is a gamble with how I'll feel.  I guess hearing yesterday that there is a zero percent chance that we will get back tog

Dear Diary, I'm studying I'm going to the gym I'm going out I'm hanging out with the right people I'm eating well. So why do I feel like something's missing On top of all that, the guilt of feeling this despite having the life others would desire

I'm not as strong as I woulda liked to be in life I want to be more than what I am rn and I accept the consequences of asking for more Lemme have it xD

Dear Diary, 🤤 So update from not having an all day text 🤔 , I sent him a song and he sent me another song back! A nice one. He got the hint and we been back and forth with it just sending each other songs. And love songs too.  This is weird co

Today I didnt get a text from him. Bad sign. Because this is his pattern before he ghosts me. And what do I do? I send him a youtube video song that I found to suit my feelings for him. Hope he gets the hint. Very likely he'll blow it off and change

Dear Diary, ❤❤❤❤❤❤ I feel happy like any fool would.  I'm so happy I could cry, I'm also so vulnerable right now I could cry.  I saw him today.  He pulled me in to cuddle as we watched a movie. We went to go eat and came back and this time I pul

Dear Diary, I saw him today.  So since last week , I've been telling him about how I have an ex from the past three years and idk why but that might be why hes not being his usual kissy self? At the time that I was leaving he gets so loveable and

Small things are happening. Hes okay with me talking with his parents and doesn't try to hide me as much. It's a latino thing where we just hide our "new" friendships from our parents.I told him I love him. And I meant it. Only thing was, it was said

Dear Diary, Guess. What. Thee fellow I had the dream about (on previous posts) and the one whom I matched on an app for singles.  . .   I messaged him and we hung out. Just now. My gosh it was wonderful ☺️. No kisses today but a few long hugs.

!!!!!!! I found my ex on a dating site. I want to talk to him SO bad ! I just cant make the first move because of how often hes ghosted me and it's just sad all together. But at least we matched...(he did that first).. Any advice?

Dear Diary, I had a dream about "the one who got away". It was so vivid and felt amazing. We were starting to talk and hang out like we used to but this time he was more into me this time. Sweeter and kinder.  I was abruptly woken up, however, by

I spontaneously asked"Are you in love with her?" Inhaling the realization Of the circumstances  Pausing before exhaling  10 years and counting Of pausing after inhaling With no care as to what my body needs, I break down, and endure the ongoing pain,