July 04, 2020 { W }

"Are you in love with her?"

Inhaling the realization 

Of the circumstances 

Pausing before exhaling 

10 years and counting 

Of pausing after inhaling 

With no care as to what my body needs,

I break down, and endure the ongoing pain, of being far from your arms. Something I've never known.

Something my body wants as it cries in pain, thumps my chest, cold shivers, a new form of anxiety as I think of you, not being with me.