Live Again's Dear Diary

Index
You
Dear Diary,  I Was thinking about you today, about how beautiful you are, how beautiful is the mind, how beautiful is the heart, and how beautiful is the soul that you have. I was thinking about you today, about how marvelous, special, unique, ex
Feb 18
Choose yourself
Dear Diary, If the world wants you to be negative and thus wants you to spread negativity all around you, and doesn't want you to be positive and spread positivity all around you, you have to start being exactly what the world doesn't want you to
Feb 16
Love is light
Dear Diary, Light you have inside of you can light up the entire world. But it's not on me, or anybody else. It's on you. It's only on you. For you are the only one who can find it within you, you are the only one who can turn it on, make it shi
Feb 14
Love yourself
Dear Diary, You have within you something I don't have within me, I have within me, something you don't have within you. You are special in your own way, just like I am special in my own way. You are beautiful in your own way, just like I am bea
Feb 13
The more aware you are
Dear Diary, You are either truly aware or falsely aware. You either have true awareness or false awareness. False awareness is the product of awareness that is false, while true awareness is the product of awareness that is true. If you don't ha
Feb 13
Madness
Dear Diary, We have already lost so many lives, and the sad part is that the number of lives lost keeps on growing and will keep on growing. Nobody knows when the number will stop. It's a painful reminder to all of us that we are little compared
Feb 09
For you, whoever it is that you are
You can't have anything you want to have in your life if you just sit around and do nothing about it. Real life doesn't work like that. If you really want to have something in your life, you can only get it if you go after it, because it's only then
Feb 09
Noah
There are people who keep saying that we are living in the beginning of end times, that we are living in the beginning days of Noah. And then there are people who keep saying to us that we have nothing to worry about, because there really is nothing
Feb 09
Consequences of our actions
Dear Diary, I fear the day the time will come when we'll all have to answer for the consequences of our actions. For the consequences of our greedy actions. We think we understand how the nature works, but in reality we don't understand how the
Feb 07
Life
Dear Diary, Life is so fragile. You can see what happened yesterday, you can see what's happening today, but you can't see what will happen tomorrow. You can look back into your past, but you can't look forward into your future. You know what ha
Feb 06
Nature
Dear Diary, Nature is bigger than all the nations in the world. We are all small compared to nature. Nature doesn't hesitate when it needs to strike back. How many more lives does it need to take for us to realize we have no right to interfere i
Feb 06
Good luck charm
Dear Diary, If you see yourself as someone  who's capable of achieving more,  and you are someone who actually does  something about it, then you are going  to achieve more.  But if you see yourself as someone  who is capable of achievi
Jan 17
Don't be rude. Be kind.
Dear Diary, I know I'm not perfect, I know that I'm flawed, I know that I'm very flawed, for just like you I've done things in my youth I'm not proud of and I have no reason to be proud of. But I've never been rude to anyone, I've never been rude
Jan 06
Idiots
Dear Diary, When a man judges another man, he doesn't really know himself or anybody else. You don't really know my full story, and I don't really know your full story, you are as mystery to me as I am mystery to you. You don't really know me, j
Jan 03
September 27, 2022
Wise One, I feel like this a lot. On one hand, I have so much to be grateful for and for the first time in my life I am not struggling to survive. On the other hand, my behavior during psychotic breaks brought trauma to others. I have been stable f
Sep 28
March 18, 2022
Wise One, So far things have been good. I'm getting back in contact with some old friends. It's nice to have people to talk to again.
Mar 19
March 13, 2022
Wise One,I dont have much to report. Still trying to do my daily steps, but I'm not always motivated. I get at least 2k steps in every day though. The medication has caused weight gain, even though I'm doing my steps.  I'm reading three books. Harry
Mar 14
March 01, 2022
Wise One, I finished reading my first self help book. I'm going to take a break before working on the next. In the mean time I will be reading Harry Potter and Forging the Dark Sword.  I realize I want to try working on a story of my own. It will be
Mar 02
February 27, 2022
Wise One, Daily affirmations are not my thing. No amount of rephrasing words can change the trauma I have survived. Pretty words can't change that I have severe mental illness. However, I am taking baby steps towards recovery. For example, I have bee
Feb 28
February 25, 2022
Wise One, Chapter 3 was about finding the inner voice and the good from a situation in which you struggled. Chapter 4 was about fear. For me, the biggest struggle is having manic episodes. I'm not in control of myself when they happen. I guess the go
Feb 25
February 24, 2022
Wise One, Chapter 2 was about mirror work. Basically saying affirmations while looking at yourself in the mirror. These affirmations are not my thing, and I just start feeling bitter. I'm not sure why. Instead I just take a moment to feel gratitude.
Feb 25
February 23, 2022
Wise One, How should we define our value or what should we see our value as? I ponder this question as these days, I feel I barely have any value. I don't work, I don't cook, and I rarely clean. Sure I bring in a bit of money from VA disability, so I
Feb 24
February 18, 2022
Wise one, We have four sources of income. I have money coming in from VA Disability. My husband has a little from VA disability as well, but also works 2 jobs.  Even though we have four sources of income, we have been struggling financially lately. T
Feb 19
February 15, 2022
Wise One, I spent valentines day with my husband though we didn't do much. Still, I feel close to him. In previous entries (while manic/insane) I wanted a divorce. At that time he wasn't able to handle it well, he didnt know what to do other than try
Feb 16
February 13, 2022
Wise one, It's been such a long time since I wrote to you.  I'm embarrassed. When I started writing to you with this app I was fine. However I quickly delved into insanity. Not because I was writing to you, my mind collapsed regardless. It always hur
Feb 14
August 30, 2020
Dear Diary, I know youve been patient Im so sorry But I never truly blamed you I just hurt myself  By hurting you Noe I have a mask for you this time Ive got your good luck charm  Black jack Black clover Live lucky Thanks for
Aug 30
August 28, 2020
Aloha spirit= Holy Spirit, I met both at 7 hills Idk My puppy The only child I will ever have She loves both
Aug 29
August 28, 2020
To my favorite ghost, You were the one I fell in love with at first site. I was being hazed for 16 hours in the mailroom, its 126 degrees here in Afghanistan. You are from k9 unit, and you saved me with a box of chow and a bottle of water, a
Aug 28
August 28, 2020
Big MAUI, NOW I KNOW MY NAME now I know the name of my gaurdian angel...kind of Everyone calls him JrHe is samoanHe is a combat veteranHe is a green side Navy corpsmanHe really can sing Every time we are in danger he sings in his native tongueWhen we
Aug 28