February 25, 2022

Chapter 3 was about finding the inner voice and the good from a situation in which you struggled. Chapter 4 was about fear.

For me, the biggest struggle is having manic episodes. I'm not in control of myself when they happen. I guess the good that came from it is now I am getting the help I need and getting the medication I need. 

The thing is, having another manic episode is one of my biggest fears too. I am still figuring out medication and I won't know if it is working until summer/fall. 

It's clear to me that part of my journey to self love is learning to accept mental illness. I feel so bitter about it though and it's hard to see how it can be a good thing.