February 15, 2022

I spent valentines day with my husband though we didn't do much. Still, I feel close to him.

In previous entries (while manic/insane) I wanted a divorce. At that time he wasn't able to handle it well, he didnt know what to do other than try to stop me using force, but we have gone to couples counseling and learned better ways to handle it in the future. Mostly, if I get bad again I would have to be hospitalized. It's hard for me having a serious mental illness, but it's hard for him too. He describes it as scary watching the one you love lose touch with reality like that. 

I'm really hoping it doesn't happen again. He said in a weird way, it brought us closer as it lead to us going to therapy. I appreciate how hard he tries for me. I'm very lucky to have someone in my life as support. We really have grown as a couple these days. 

I just wish he didn't have to work so much.