Wise One,
I feel like this a lot. On one hand, I have so much to be grateful for and for the first time in my life I am not struggling to survive. On the other hand, my behavior during psychotic breaks brought trauma to others. I have been stable for about a year now, in therapy, taking meds, and what not. So I'm doing all I can to prevent any future episodes from happening, but is it really enough to deserve the blessings that I now enjoy?