Same_blues's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, today has been rough. My husbands schedule changed because of the increase covid cases in OTHER states. Anyways, now when he's home, DS and I are doing school, and when he comes home, it's super late. Everything is clashing. He feels the

Dear Diary, still waiting on the refinance. Man it takes forever to push paperwork. Funny how I can get everything to them within 24 hours but it takes them 4 weeks to push papers. Oh well I guess. DS got yellow belt in Karate, I am so proud of h

Dear Diary, I don't have an update on life today. Maybe later. But I did want to share my new instagram. I like to take pictures, definately no professional. If anyone was interested.

Dear Diary, the appraisal went through beautifully. Now just waiting on the underwriters. This can take weeks. They except the beginning of October hopefully. Then basically my husbands truck will be paid off and things will be good again. No new hou

Dear Diary, ok, today is going better. I am really trying to not get my hopes up because I don't want to be disappointed again. But we started the refinance on our home and tapping into the equity. Doing this will pay off my husbands new truck he jus

Dear Diary, What a dissappointing week. Not able to transfer because my husband's job is being stupid. So we thought about just moving a few miles away into a better house. But everything in our price range locally is too small. So once again, an

Dear Diary, so last night all our plans got crushed. I am heartbroken and angry. We had this amazing plan on moving, we were just waiting for the job transfer. It was going to make our lives so much better and happier, but now it seems as though that

Dear Diary, well I might be starting my own adventure! Some of the members on a facebook group I am on said they are interested in me doing some tutorial videos on baking bread. Tips and how too. I am SO nervious! I have no idea where to start or

Dear Diary, still alright, though I seem to be stuck in my own head. Overly worried about things. At least we past the peak of summer and things are starting to SLOWLY cool off. Meaning I can finally start using my oven again and start doing the thin

Dear Diary, things are going well over here. My son is loving karate so that is fantastic! He also finally lost that tooth! I swear I never seen a tooth hang on by a thread for that long! I was like 2 days away from calling the dentist! I am also doi

Dear Diary, still waiting on business to pick up so that my husband can transfer with his job and we can move. Just a waiting game, and while we wait I am fixing up the house enough to be able to sell it. My son has started Karate and is really l

Dear Diary, so we are getting things figured out. After homeschool with my son today I will be going to the store to get bubble wrap and I am going to start packing the decor of the house. Get this place clean and bare so that we can access exactly w

Dear Diary, alright I am back. Like I said before, I am terrible at upkeeping a journal. Anyways, homeschooling is amazing. Since we started back in January my son has advanced to the next grade and is learning so much! Behavior is much better as wel

Dear Diary, I have no idea why I decided to keep a diary again, I am terrible at keeping up with them, but here we go I guess. We have made a lot of changes in our lives which includes me becoming a stay at home mother again, homeschooling our

We are sad everytime because we think we are the victim. So, everyone victimizes themselves at some point. Does that mean everyone is so so bad to each other that everyone is a victim?

Dear Diary, It's all back. I just didn't do things when I was supposed to. When it was all perfect. I tried. But i didn't do the best. Now it's all back, the excessive, constant anxiety. I think I committed to her a little bit the other day,

Dear Diary, Sharing things or talking about them with someone you like, admire, kind of legitimises them. But I've lost that legitimacy arising from emotions while speaking, with all these years of faking it. A way to indifference, a power. But i d

This one's to the reader's. Whom should one trust in one's life?With whom should he reveal all his insecurities? Or should he reveal them at all? I've been thinking and maybe one shouldn't reveal any insecurities at all. He comes across as weak for

Dear Diary, I'm afraid this one does not go with my username. But, in a way, it does. I don't know why i feel like crying. It feels like she is setting me free. Free from everything. With her, all I feel is cheerfulness. I feel loved and I feel cl

Dear Diary, Mother said things to me today, hurting my feelings, hurting my ego, I don't know the difference. I feel nauseated right now, maybe because of the anxiety or the wish to give everything up. I don't like any of it. My mind is running awa

Dear Diary, Now that I think of everything, we abandoned dad. I abandoned him to be alone in that town with the job, the people he hated. Loneliness IS THE cause of cancer. We gave it to him. I gave it to him.  I didn't take any solid decisions