May 06, 2020

 

Dear Diary,

I'm afraid this one does not go with my username. But, in a way, it does. I don't know why i feel like crying.

It feels like she is setting me free. Free from everything. With her, all I feel is cheerfulness. I feel loved and I feel closer to someone than I have felt in years. Yes, years. I'm sorry but not even, my fam.

Let me tell you about my little theory on emotional attachments. Imagine a gaseous sphere. At the centre, there's our consciousness. Things we love, we get attached to, we desire, enter this sphere. More strong, stubborn the person is, the more difficult will it be for a thing to get into or get out of it. I had my fam in the sphere. But things changed. Everytime someone hurts me, i develop a shield like thing for that specific one. I guess there's a strong shield for everyone now.

But her, she has been in the sphere for a long time. But i haven't been able to develop the shield for her. SHE IS SO DAMN LOVELY.

I love her. We're not beyond the talking stage yet, tho.


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