Cat's Dear Diary

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October 21, 2023
I was told years ago that the lump near my c section scar was scar tissue, normal. Years later it’s grown and it hurts. Going to the doctor tomorrow. I’m scared, but also a low key hypochondriac so maybe it’s just been swollen?
Oct 21
October 14, 2023
I don’t think I can be in a relationship right now, I have to become happy by myself first. I also think I like being alone too much for one, maybe that’s why my serious relationships haven’t lasted. It would still be nice to have someone want you th
Oct 15
October 13, 2023
Hey. My kid has a friend over for the night, and they are driving me crazy. Not my daughter, but her friend is. She’s loud and talks a mile a minute and doesn’t really take no for an answer, she’ll keep begging. I’m blessed that my daughter is so wel
Oct 14
October 12, 2023
Hey. I love taking pictures… but they are a blessing and a curse. Scrolling back to when I still had a husband, and my dog. It’s crazy how different my life was.  When he left, he left his dog, he abandoned us. There was no way I could handle a 80lb
Oct 12
October 12, 2023
Hey you, after having my first physical interaction since my split with my husband, I decided to act like a high schooler and doodle words in bubble letters while I was on the phone with a friend. I wrote my my name first and then added ‘gave a blowj
Oct 12
October 11, 2023
Hey you. I got kissed for the first time since separating from my husband a year ago. I was nervous for nothing. I felt alive. I didn’t want it to end. I don’t remember my husband kissing that passionately, hence the separation. Well that’s not why,
Oct 11
School
I go to college for culinary arts. It's just a community college that has the program, and I need to do my general education. The program started out okay, and I felt good about moving forward with something, but the more I attend to these classes th
Jan 11
Weight
Do you ever get that feeling of being uncomfortable in your own skin? I get it every now and then. Sometimes it happens for no reason. Sometimes it happens after I take a shower. But I think the main reason why I'm feeling this way is because of my w
Jan 11
Online diary
I decided to do this online diary because I felt like sharing with people who I don't have to be careful around. Since I don't feel like I can talk to anyone in the real world, I wanted to talk online. Especially with some of my secrets, so I can let
Jan 11
Art
I think about what could be most important in my life, and every time I do, my thoughts run to art. Art is what I want my future to be made up of. I've always loved to draw since I was little, and everything about art just moves me. It lures me. I wa
Jan 11
Time
I have this thing that I didn't use to have when I was younger and growing up. This thing that makes me want to be quick at things, or do nothing at all if I feel like it wastes too much time. I hate this feeling. Of inpatients. And I'm struggling s
Jan 11
Envy
I'm feeling upset lately about what I've found out a few days ago. I'll come out and say it already that I am in college, to give an idea of my age. Anyhow, I heard from one of my closest friends, who is a bit younger than me, lost her virginity la
Jan 11
Alone
I'm feeling more and more alone lately than ever. I'm realizing how I am alone. Maybe not literally, but when I think about the people around me, there isn't a single one who I can talk to. Not deeply, and definitely not about all my emotions. I thin
Jan 11