Strangerdanger's Dear Diary

It’s Saturday. Woke up early and went to the farmers market with my babydoll and our dog. It was a really good morning. I’ve been trying to get out more and do things, some days  I really don’t want to but I need to for my kiddo. I’ve been struggling

Haven’t been on in a while. Things have been ok, the meds have been helping and I have clearer thoughts which is great. But now my loneliness feels real. I like to be alone but I also don’t like being alone. There’s no point in dating, most people ar

Actually had a great day yesterday, work meeting/training was actually beneficial to me in regard to having hard conversations I know I need to have. Woke up at 4am again today though, I can never sleep in. Working my 2nd job today but I don’t really

Another day down. You know, I often think about suicide, but I couldn’t imagine the pain I would bring to the people I love so dearly if I took my own life. I couldn’t imagine putting them through so much heartbreak and sadness. I know this heartbrea

Had my therapy session today with Megan. You know, she’s the first female therapist that I’ve actually liked. We’re holding off on EMDR since the first session was too much for me. Instead we’re going to work on my dissociation. She gave me an assess

I haven’t had many emotions lately other than sadness, I need to take a break. I’ve been thinking about what I want for my future and what kind of person I’d like to be. I’m just so tired. Tired of working my ass off and tired of being me. I know I n

It’s Monday. I am absolutely exhausted and I’m working a 24hr shift today. I feel a lot better mentally though, I think haha. The weather feels amazing this morning. Let’s hope I stay in high spirits.

It’s currently 127am and I’m still wide awake. This insomnia kills me. I haven’t smoked in a while just cuz the last time it gave me severe anxiety thinking about how much I think I’m fucking up. I feel like I’m spiraling a bit and I’m on the outside