November 17, 2022

Another day down. You know, I often think about suicide, but I couldn’t imagine the pain I would bring to the people I love so dearly if I took my own life. I couldn’t imagine putting them through so much heartbreak and sadness. I know this heartbreak and sadness, it’s not something o would ever wish upon anyone. I often feel like I just don’t want to be here anymore but I keep pushing to the point of exhaustion and I don’t know if I’ll ever make it out of this cycle. I just want to feel normal, I hate pretending like I’m happy when really I’m just so depressed inside. The dark humor helps haha, but it’s definitely not enough. Here’s to better days, chels