Mrs. Brightside's Dear Diary

Index
February 03, 2025
Dear Diary,   Hey, guys! Lately, I’ve been doing some thinking about where I am in life, almost at a crossroads, trying to decide where I go from here because I don’t understand which idea to work on first. You all have always been there for me whe
Feb 03
February 03, 2025
Dear Diary, Heyy yall I know it's been a while I've just been getting my life tg there's a lot happening good things tho lmao  I have met someone  well we have known each other for a long time  and he had a girlfriend then but they broke up and he
Feb 03
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Dear song bird and everyone  , here follow me on here  https://musicboard.app/lilmama  we talk on dere and everything hey yall need some new friends  pls come and follow me
Jan 17
January 16, 2025
Dear Diary, I’ve stared at my screen for a couple minutes now, wondering where exactly I should start. It’s been over a year and all my words still feel so weak when I’m speaking to you. It’s like I’m talking but I know there’s no one listening. In t
Jan 16
January 16, 2025
Dear Diary, Good morning everyone i hope everyone is doing great we have some great people on here like I love it yall are really helpful LOVE YALL          JAZZYYYY
Jan 16
January 16, 2025
Dear Songbird, look my ex is not that type of person he is so sweet and we used to go to school tg also my bf is changing into a different person he is so nice now and more loving Idfk what is happening look I know my ex for 3 years we are very close
Jan 16
January 15, 2025
Dear Songbird, you are good but anyways he is 18 I date him when I was 15 and he was 17  he always wanted to come  see me just life was hard for him and he's been good to me and I still love him should I go with my ex or stay with my bf Idk what to d
Jan 15
January 15, 2025
Dear Songbird, me and my ex broke up long distance relationship  he has been there for me for so long  also we were great together and he wants to come see me I'm finna be 17 My boyfriend is a jerk and disrespectful but he is very lovely I just don't
Jan 15
January 15, 2025
Dear Diary, heyyy yall i have a question so My ex wanna get back together when I turn 18 but I have a boyfriend but he hasnt been there for me really but my ex has been there for me since day one what should do  My ex was the best boyfriend  I don't
Jan 15
January 15, 2025
Dear Diary, Good morning i wanna thank the people who been commenting  on my post very helpful relationships are not always good we have cheaters out in this world and catfishers also life is getting a lil  better it will take time I'm just ready to
Jan 15
January 14, 2025
Dear Diary, Life gets harder and harder each day but it gets better  you can ever wish to find the right person for a relationship and love  but you know I wish I could find the right kind of love and relationship also let me ask you guys something
Jan 14
January 13, 2025
Dear Diary, Its Jazzy again I wanna thank the people who  commented on my last post look I have been feeling like no one is here for me my mom doesn't want me here at our house she has said it I have my friends that care about me and half of my famil
Jan 13
January 10, 2025
Dear Diary,my name is Adrianna but my friends call me Jazzy anyway I'm am 16 year old i lost my brother 5 years ago I go throw alot of depress and anxiety I miss him a lot I feel like I have no one I just wanna leave and be happy life gets hard and h
Jan 10
Lonely hearts club
Left for a week to a mental hospital for cutting. Everything was fine and good.  But that’s the problem… It’s too good to be true So I fucked up and I relapsed 🫶🏽💖 I cut again <3 Whoops🧍🏽‍♀️ Told y’all I’m weak af
Oct 31
Today is gonna my day
I relapsed again yesterday…. I have been trouble loving myself lately so today is bad bitch day <3 Today I will love myself and tell myself all those precious things I wish people would tell me🫶🏽 Cuz I deserve to feel amazing :) I’v
Oct 22
Im loosing it…
Im so tired of everyone and honestly everything. I’m tired of opening up and talking, I’m tired of everyone hugging me and touching. It’s so fucking annoying and it irritates me so much to the point where I feel like I’m gonna cry because of how
Oct 20
I’ll ruin me
They want me to start identifying when I ge my lows and highs, well here’s one of them. I for sure get very happy fantasizing about cutting with someone else and drinking and just doing reckless and careless things, basically I get happy when I p
Oct 19
Diagnosis appointment
Today is the day I get diagnosed or maybe my journey to getting diagnosed starts, idk but either way I’m feeling maybe a bit nervous but mostly very curious and excited. Now I know excited is a weird word to use in this context but what I mean is
Oct 19
Kill me rn
I want to punch the living shit out of my mom rn, I swear I hope that bitch falls and cracks her neck open cuz omg She’s forcing to hang out with my grandma and I HATE BEING WITH HER!!!! I already hate old people now I have to hang with one I
Oct 18
It’s hard to care
Everyone around me is mad I cut but honestly I genuinely don’t care anymore, idk, I don’t really feel anything anymore tbh. Maybe just today, but I honestly everyone (my friends) is disappointed that I cut and honestly it’s hard to care rn I
Oct 18
Positivity or Negativity
It’s hard to get  better and to be proud of not cutting and just reaching out and getting help because I’m my head even in a good mood I tell myself I don’t deserve it and I need to cut cuz I have to be sad, back then I wouldn’t cut, my way of doing
Oct 16
Yet ANOTHER breakdown (this had reason though)
I had an emotional breakdown yesterday. My therapist told me like a week ago? That I have PTSD from the sexual assault and bullying I went through for 6 months, part of me didn’t really believe it but I realized that it’s actually true tho… I
Oct 16
Not what I expected
So today I had a an anxiety attack and went to the school bathroom to cut… I don’t really know how I feel about that honestly
Oct 15
Intrusive thoughts
I’ve been having such violent thoughts lately… Idk know why I feel like I’m gonna truly loose it.  I feel this anger and anxiety boiling up inside me and at any moment it’s gonna spill.
Oct 13
New clown look
So desperate to cut now that we doing at school… Today me and my bestie smoked a cigar together, it was her first time and it was hilarious honestly. My dumbass woke up early motivated to look really pretty today and I did all so that maybe m
Oct 13
It’s not working
Yesterday was truly something…  I was feeling pretty low and thinking about cutting and drinking and having a cigarette. I left early and went home aaaannnddd… I gave in Drank straight from the bottle, had 2 cigarettes and started cutting
Oct 12
I wanna die
Someone reach out please
Oct 11
Today so far
I texted my ex last night and he talked to me today in person for the first time 👁👁 He keeps staring at me like he wants me to say something to him but I just don’t know what to say😭✋🏽 It’s so awkward and weird💀 He got a haircut and he l
Oct 11