Songbird's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, THE CRAZIES THING HAPPENED!!! So the fire alarm in my building has been going off a lot lately and it went off again last night. I thought it would be cleared quickly and we could go back in. But then another fire truck showed up and tw

Dear Diary, God I feel like throwing up. I was able to force some breakfast down my throat but almost threw up in the process. As I walked to class I just wanted to curl into a ball and hold my stomach. Jesus Christ I haven’t felt this way in a whi

Dear Diary, The fire alarm went off AGAIN last night but at one in the morning. That makes three times. Then at four in the morning a guy knocked on all of our doors checking the heaters in our room to make sure the caps were on tight or something.

Dear Diary, Ink heart is right. If he let his mom say something like that then what else could she have said? I was always paranoid and always asked what’s family thought about me after that. I can’t let it get under my skin, especially since it is

“Do you think the elves will find out anytime soon that we have escaped?” Jinn asked. “I don’t know. We have been stealing and have been using up a lot of their resources lately. They are bound to figure out something is going on but hopefully not

Dear Diary, Today was quite an adventure. I was able to sleep in...and then felt guilty for sleeping so much so I got up and had some brunch. A person in my math class has never had laffy taffy before so I told him I would bring him some. My math c

Dear Diary, Today was fine. I am writing at two in the morning because I can’t fucking sleep. My stomach hurts so much that it is hard to eat sometimes. I hung out with friends and got dinner with one. Why are relationships so dumb. I never realized

“Well, isn’t it the daughter of traitors?” He scoffed, “You are such a disgrace to our kind. If it was up to me you would have gotten the same sentence as your parents!” Eowyn’s blood began to boil and had to resist the urge to give him a beat down r

Dear Diary, Not much happened yesterday. I went out with friends for lunch and did some homework and did some drawing. My roommate is gone for the weekend and so I have the dorm to myself. To be honest not sure what I could do with my roommate gone

As Campa skipped towards Eowyn her long blond braid swished behind her, dancing to an imaginary tune. Her dark eyes glinted with delight as she began to pick up speed and dropped to her knees, sliding through the mud. She unfortunately went right thr

Dear Diary, You know the drill, I am writing a little early. For some reason my alarm was stuck to going off at seven so I decided to just get up at seven. I woke up and got ready for the day. I went to the cafeteria, got some breakfast and finishe

As she got closer she passed beautiful flower gardens that were full of flowers that filled the air with their perfume. She had to admit though that if she stayed too long near the flower gardens the strong smell gave her a horrible headache. As Eowy

Dear Diary, Again, I am writing early and will add overtime. I did see Lucas at breakfast. It makes that I haven’t been seeing him because he has been going to breakfast a lot earlier than I usually do. The reason why I went to breakfast so early i

Then all of a sudden, a bush shook behind her and she whirled around, her branch inches away from the face of a rabbit. Eowyn sighed and the tension left her body as she realized there was no threat. “You scared me little guy.” She knelt down and st

Dear Diary, I am writing a little earlier than I usually do so I might add more later. Today has actually been pretty chill. I don’t have any classes so I have been working on homework and my story. I am so picky with how it is coming out so I am a

Left for a week to a mental hospital for cutting. Everything was fine and good.  But that’s the problem… It’s too good to be true So I fucked up and I relapsed 🫶🏽💖 I cut again <3 Whoops🧍🏽‍♀️ Told y’all I’m weak af

I relapsed again yesterday…. I have been trouble loving myself lately so today is bad bitch day <3 Today I will love myself and tell myself all those precious things I wish people would tell me🫶🏽 Cuz I deserve to feel amazing :) I’v

Im so tired of everyone and honestly everything. I’m tired of opening up and talking, I’m tired of everyone hugging me and touching. It’s so fucking annoying and it irritates me so much to the point where I feel like I’m gonna cry because of how

They want me to start identifying when I ge my lows and highs, well here’s one of them. I for sure get very happy fantasizing about cutting with someone else and drinking and just doing reckless and careless things, basically I get happy when I p

Today is the day I get diagnosed or maybe my journey to getting diagnosed starts, idk but either way I’m feeling maybe a bit nervous but mostly very curious and excited. Now I know excited is a weird word to use in this context but what I mean is

I want to punch the living shit out of my mom rn, I swear I hope that bitch falls and cracks her neck open cuz omg She’s forcing to hang out with my grandma and I HATE BEING WITH HER!!!! I already hate old people now I have to hang with one I

Everyone around me is mad I cut but honestly I genuinely don’t care anymore, idk, I don’t really feel anything anymore tbh. Maybe just today, but I honestly everyone (my friends) is disappointed that I cut and honestly it’s hard to care rn I

It’s hard to get  better and to be proud of not cutting and just reaching out and getting help because I’m my head even in a good mood I tell myself I don’t deserve it and I need to cut cuz I have to be sad, back then I wouldn’t cut, my way of doing

I had an emotional breakdown yesterday. My therapist told me like a week ago? That I have PTSD from the sexual assault and bullying I went through for 6 months, part of me didn’t really believe it but I realized that it’s actually true tho… I

So today I had a an anxiety attack and went to the school bathroom to cut… I don’t really know how I feel about that honestly

I’ve been having such violent thoughts lately… Idk know why I feel like I’m gonna truly loose it.  I feel this anger and anxiety boiling up inside me and at any moment it’s gonna spill.

So desperate to cut now that we doing at school… Today me and my bestie smoked a cigar together, it was her first time and it was hilarious honestly. My dumbass woke up early motivated to look really pretty today and I did all so that maybe m

Yesterday was truly something…  I was feeling pretty low and thinking about cutting and drinking and having a cigarette. I left early and went home aaaannnddd… I gave in Drank straight from the bottle, had 2 cigarettes and started cutting

Someone reach out please

I texted my ex last night and he talked to me today in person for the first time 👁👁 He keeps staring at me like he wants me to say something to him but I just don’t know what to say😭✋🏽 It’s so awkward and weird💀 He got a haircut and he l