Mrs. Brightside's Dear Diary

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get it over with
I hate that there’s  days where I wanna get better and I wanna be a good person who’s actually nice and kind but then there’s day where I want to DESTROY MYSELF like OBLITERATE my mental health.  It’s like I have to be a mean, selfish bitch becau
Sep 27
MOVE ON ALREADY!!!
I wanna be a hot single independent bitch but… I miss him.
Sep 27
I want him back
I want my ex back, he’s an ass and treated me like one. But I miss him :( I miss his touch and I miss him caring about me and “worrying” about me… well he never really gave a fuck but sometimes he did tho
Sep 27
Let me be hot already
I can’t wait for my new wardrobe to arrive. I’m finally gonna be the fag whore I aspire to be🫶🏽 My inner slut is IMPATIENT!!!!
Sep 27
Lucky/unlucky
Sometimes I think the people who have no friends are lucky, they can destroy themselves and not worry about being a burden to others. SOMETIMES I wish that was me so I could drink and get high and do whatever I wanted and not give a fuck, but then I
Sep 27
Destroy myself
I have an obsession with destroying myself. But I’m too scared to go through with anything extreme that could genuinely destroy my body and mental health, I’m scared I won’t be to bounce back into a positive state anymore so I don’t do it but I fanta
Sep 27
Idk
The reason why I was cutting was because of this nasty relationship, basically my virginity has always been very important to me and I wanted to loose it at least for our someone who cared and I also wanted it to be special but sadly I lost it in a r
Sep 19
It’s getting better
Last time I cut was maybe like a week ago? So far it’s been a couple of days and I have felt a lot better, I don’t feel that sad anymore and im starting to feel like my old self again so that’s good <3 I thought I lost me but thankfully I found me o
Sep 19
Mom keeps talking
I hate it when my mom brings up my eating habits to my family because then I have to listen to them telling me to eat and to stop doing what I’m doing, I understand that they care and they don’t want my health to decline but at the same time it just
Sep 19
ED
I think I have an eating disorder, I don’t know when it started, I don’t remember, but all I know is that the reason why I do it is not because I hate my body, it’s because I feel in control and I feel proud of myself when I don’t eat. When I’m sad I
Sep 12
Something
I feel like there’s something inside of me that wants to come out, but it never does, no matter how much I hit myself or yell or take deep breaths I still feel like there’s something in me just on the verge of coming out, it’s really overwhelming whe
Sep 12
My fav daydreams
I daydream all the time about having a public emotional breakdown. Where I start yelling and throwing things and can’t control myself, and these daydreams I’m surrounded by strangers and people I know looking at me with the most shocked looks on thei
Sep 12
New guy
I met a new guy, lets see what happens
Sep 11
🫶🏽
I wanna start my life over or I just wanna skip this year and graduate already.
Sep 11
Anxiety
I’m trying the wrist band technique for school since I can’t cutt there, let’s hope it works🤞🏽
Sep 11