CalleeGee's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, I took my medicine today, and I feel pretty clear headed, and less suicidal than usual.  I had a dream about a demon breaking out in my head. The demon was surrounded by a gold light, and it hatched out of a brain tumor, and told

Dear Diary, I think I will need to find my bunny a new companion. The one we just lost, she was obsessed with him, and followed him everywhere, grooming him constantly. He LOVED it. Now he's lonely, and I can't give him constant attentuon 24/7.

Dear Diary, Well, it's no secret that I've been struggling with depression and suicidal ideation. I wasn't ready to handle much of anything. Today, my beloved rabbit passed away. Husband is out of town, and it's just been me and my animals.

TW: Suicidal ideation Dear Diary, Sometimes I fall asleep feeling hopeless, wishing that I will never wake up. Sometimes I plan my death. It would be so simple. I'm on many medicatioms. I tell myself, I need to feed my dogs, and my r

Dear Diary, I am forging a new kind of relationship with my sister. I have three sisters, but she is the only one I would speak to regularly, because she would call me. But, she has stopped calling me. Other sisters are either busy or not ph

Dear Diary, Everyone has characters in their neighborhood. When I was growing up, we had "The Walker". We never bothered to ask her name. She walked everywhere, muttering under her breath, or sometimes yelling. She argued with her mother who was

CW: Suicidal Ideation & Pot Dear Diary, I have OCD, which I know most people think means I clean a lot, or am very tidy or meticulous, and that I don't like pictures hanging crooked on the wall. Well, I am fairly tidy, but nobody likes crook

Dear Diary I am glad to have one friend. One friend might be enough. We met online, and have a lot in common. We were very open with eachother about the fact that we both needed a friend, and we just said, "Hey, we can be friends," just like that

High Fantasy Once upon a time there was a person who did not like to touch people, and also mostly did not like to be touched. One day someone offered to shake hands, and this person did not shake hands, because shaking hands is weird and outdated. T

Dear Diary, Sometimes I feel worried about the future, or guilty. I live far away from my family, so I don't see them often. Once Or twice a year, I see them, or they come and see me. I haven't really been there to see my now-adult nephew gr

Dear Diary, I got this lovely little green sopranissimo ukulele (AKA pocket uke!). It's about 17 inches long. Just a tiny thing, but a great sound. I gave it ADF#B. My concert uke and banjolele are both in GCEA. I got them years ago, but I haven

Dear Diary, It's hard to meet friends when we've all been isolated for so long. I think it's weird, anyway, that adults don't even seem to like making new friends. Most people prefer to just stagnate in their social comfort zone.  I moved to

Dear Diary, All the ire right now surrounding food for me is due to my body's current reactions to food, and my disappointment over it. On top of that, I can't deal with one more eye roll, or, "Have you tried not thinking about it, and eating it

Talkin' About Gluten Intolerance I just want to talk about why gluten is such an emotional subject for a lot of people, including myself. I have strong feelings about this, and they must get out! When I was a kid, I learned about evolution, and thoug

Dear Diary, Ah yes, this is exactly the app I was looking for. Something anonymous but social. Thank you TOD. I will make this my new Journaling home. ❤

Dear Diary, I honestly don't feel like sharing anything right now, so I'm just gonna say Happy New Year!!! The last year has been something of a roller coaster somehow, and I hope this one would be better and calmer.  I'm sincerely hopin

Dear Diary, I seriously need to start drinking a lot of water from now on.🤧

Dear Diary, Hi! I forgot to rant about something that's been upsetting me in the last months. I HATE GOING TO THE OFFICE FOR 5 DAYS STRAIGHT EVERY WEEK! So we transitioned from a work-from-home setup to working onsite already, and when I tell you

Dear Diary, You probably thought that I'd already forgotten about you. Nah, coz I'm here again. So, I've been cosplaying, right? It's been really fun, especially that my fam and friends are very supportive! I had just actually attended a conven

Dear Diary, I decided to start doing cosplay. It was my first-time last month when I cosplayed Chika Fujiwara from Kaguya-sama: Love Is War anime at Cosplay Carnival 2022. Even tho we weren't able to get into the main venue because they couldn

Dear Diary, Not me masturbating then writing an emotional poem right after. Bye. 😭

Dear Diary, I just wanna share this excerpt from Lucid: "I lay down on the grass beside him. We were now closer to each other, and I could even feel his arm slightly touching mine. Somewhere in the silence, the breeze, and the warm sun rays ra

Dear Diary, I can say that I'm somehow doing better these days. I'm not totally okay, and I still get anxious from time to time, but I don't always feel down anymore, unlike before. I've decided to continue writing my novel and posting it again

Dear Diary, Hi. I just want you to know that I think I've just written the best prologue I've ever written for a novel in my entire life and that I'm very happy about it. That's all.

Dear Diary, I know, I know. It's been almost a month since I last wrote to you, sorry about that. I guess it's still not that late to say, "happy new year!"? Well, it's not really happy coz I got fucking Covid. It's only the first month into 202

Dear Diary, It's been a while since I last wrote to you. I don't really have anything important to share since life's been pretty much the same—work, weekends, then work again. Well, there's some good news, at least. We have a new manager on our

Dear Diary, I felt like going through my Google Drive files earlier today, and I accidentally unearthed the novel and poetry drafts I wrote back in high school and college. They sucked, of course. It's because my writing skills were still poor bac

Dear Diary, Here it is!!!! "They were boys—one mortal, one half-god. One swore to be the first hero who is happy, and the other swore to be his reason. As Thetis, the goddess sea nymph, Achilles’ mother, and the first and very being to deny

Dear Diary, I just finished Madeline Miller's The Song of Achilles, and I am so empty right now. At the same time, I'm full of feelings I can't understand. The story was so beautifully painful, but I am very much content with how it ended.

Dear Diary, It's the last day of work for this week, and I will be logging out in an hour. I want to feel happy about it, but I can't. It's because I know there's another week coming, and I'll have to deal with the same shit all over again. It's a